Ever know that God is speaking to you undeniably about something very specific in your life? I had one of those moments this morning. Two friends of mine, separately shared with me what they read in their quiet times this morning. Well, both "happened" to have read the SAME verse: Proverbs 25:28 which says, A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls.
I actually wept when I read the 2nd email and saw the same verse. I must confess I wept not only because God was kind to speak so specifically to me this morning, but also because of what I knew God was speaking to me about.
Let me explain. Several things have culminated this week to direct my thoughts toward an area where I indulge my flesh and that is in the area of foods, more specifically what I would consider "snacks". I have been growing exasperated with my boys for asking for 'treats' all day long until one day this week God reminded me that I am no different. I want treats all day long, too, and because I'm the mommy, I have the prerogative to indulge that craving more than I allow the boys to do the same. Also, somehow this month, I spent the entire food budget by the 20th of May! SO, it is Mother Hubbard over here, and our cuboards are bare...not a whole lot to choose from in the "treat" category.
Finally, we are planning a trip to my parents this weekend about which I'm very excited. This trip will be a little different, however, as my mom was recently diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. So, where there was always a plethora of yummy, sugary treats to be had at my mom's, there will now be none. I found myself actually contemplating how I would go the entire weekend without a sugary snack. Isn't that pathetic? Perhaps, but certainly signs of a bit of an addiction at worst, preoccupation at best.
At the same time, God was revealing to me my pre-occupation/addiction to sugar, He was also laying before me a few things that I really want more than I want to be immediately gratified. Our church is currently seeking to raise funds to pave our parking lot. It's in desperate need. Lawrence and I really want to give as much as we can to this effort. But, as we don't typically have excess in our budget, we know it will require discipline and sacrifice on our part to be able to give what we, in our hearts, want to give and feel we're being led to give. In addition, we also desire to grow in extending hospitality, in having money to be able to meet the needs of others when they're presented to us. We don't have an endless supply of income (nobody does really), so we know that in order to receive the blessing of giving, we need to sow with discipline and sacrifice when it comes to our own desires to indulge.
For me, for today, it means giving up my "treats" for a little while. :) I also want to grow in conquering this compulsion to snack on sugary treats because I know it will reap benefits in other areas of my life, making room for God to truly be my everything, to be the One who satisfies me like nothing else. I know, however, that I cannot simply resolve to deny my flesh; although resolve certainly does help. I know that I can do nothing good apart from God's Spirit empowering me. So, this morning as I wept like a child who knows he has to give up his toy to his brother and really doesn't want to, I also wept because I know God stands ready and able to give me the power to not only give up what He's asking me to, but also to do so with joy and find that the replacement, God Himself, will be much more satisfying.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Smoky Chicken Corn Cakes
I tried a new recipe recently, and it was a hit! I thought I would share it with you. My husband's family is from Guatemala, and apparently it resembles a dish familiar to their culture. It comes from Real Simple magazine, May 2007 issue.
1-- 3 1/2- 4 lb. rotisserie chicken (I used a 3 lb. chicken, and it was fine)
1 Tablespoon chopped canned chipotle chilies in adobo sauce*
3 Tablespoons fresh lime juice
1 tsp. kosher salt
1 small red onion, thinly sliced
4 Roma (plum) tomatoes, diced
1/3 c. fresh cilantro leaves (I omitted this b/c I have a white girl's palate)
1/2 c. flour
1/2 c. yellow cornmeal
1/2 tsp. baking powder
1/4 tsp. black pepper
4 large eggs
1 c. part-skim ricotta
10 oz. frozen corn, thawed
2 tsp. canola oil
1/2 cup sour cream (optional) OR parmesan cheese (our topping of choice)
Using a fork or your fingers, shred chicken meat, discarding the skin and bones. In a medium bowl, combine the meat, chipotle, lime juice, 1/4 tsp. of the salt, the onion, tomatoes, and cilantro; set aside. In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, cornmeal, baking powder, pepper, and the remaining salt. Stir in the eggs and ricotta until no lumps remain. Fold in the corn. Heat the oil in a large nonstick skillet over medium heat. For each corn cake, spoon about 1/4 cup of the batter onto the skillet and cook until golden brown and set on one side, 2 to 3 minutes. Using spatula, flip the cakes and cook 1 minute more. Divide the cakes among individual plates and top with the chicken mixture. Serve with sour cream, if desired (or we prefer parmesan cheese).
*You can find these in the mexican food or international food section of your grocery store. Once you open the can, you can store them in a sealed container in the fridge for a very long time without them going bad. Thank you, Lori Chambers for turning me on to chipotle peppers in adobo sauce!
1-- 3 1/2- 4 lb. rotisserie chicken (I used a 3 lb. chicken, and it was fine)
1 Tablespoon chopped canned chipotle chilies in adobo sauce*
3 Tablespoons fresh lime juice
1 tsp. kosher salt
1 small red onion, thinly sliced
4 Roma (plum) tomatoes, diced
1/3 c. fresh cilantro leaves (I omitted this b/c I have a white girl's palate)
1/2 c. flour
1/2 c. yellow cornmeal
1/2 tsp. baking powder
1/4 tsp. black pepper
4 large eggs
1 c. part-skim ricotta
10 oz. frozen corn, thawed
2 tsp. canola oil
1/2 cup sour cream (optional) OR parmesan cheese (our topping of choice)
Using a fork or your fingers, shred chicken meat, discarding the skin and bones. In a medium bowl, combine the meat, chipotle, lime juice, 1/4 tsp. of the salt, the onion, tomatoes, and cilantro; set aside. In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, cornmeal, baking powder, pepper, and the remaining salt. Stir in the eggs and ricotta until no lumps remain. Fold in the corn. Heat the oil in a large nonstick skillet over medium heat. For each corn cake, spoon about 1/4 cup of the batter onto the skillet and cook until golden brown and set on one side, 2 to 3 minutes. Using spatula, flip the cakes and cook 1 minute more. Divide the cakes among individual plates and top with the chicken mixture. Serve with sour cream, if desired (or we prefer parmesan cheese).
*You can find these in the mexican food or international food section of your grocery store. Once you open the can, you can store them in a sealed container in the fridge for a very long time without them going bad. Thank you, Lori Chambers for turning me on to chipotle peppers in adobo sauce!
Friday, May 18, 2007
Pictures with a Story
Two weekends ago, we had a very busy weekend...a full day at Hopkins, and two birthday parties to attend. The 2nd birthday party of the weekend was on Sunday, right after church and at the same time the boys normally take a nap. It was not a good showing for the Almengor's. We were with old neighbors of ours who we haven't seen in months. We were the only family with three kids, let alone three kids under 3 years old.
Shortly after we arrived, Judah fell and cut his lip open rather badly. At the time, we couldn't decipher what he had cut; we just saw the blood. Any mom knows facial bleeds are the worst, especially the mouth. It seemed to take forever to get it to stop bleeding and even longer to get Judah to stop crying. I'm sure after a half hour, people were wondering why we were even still at the party. But, hey, we don't come by social events that the entire family can attend too often. So, I was determined to stick it out!
Judah did calm down and eventually began to play again with the other kids, but he fell at least 3 or 4 more times that day. Not his day I guess. Tucker was in true 2 yr. old form, saying "no" to me any time I called his name, and Bella refused to sleep making her rather cranky and unable to put down. We really weren't able to participate with any of the planned activities because we were just a bit overwhelmed. My friend who hosted the party said to me at one point during the party, "I'm exhausted just watching you." :) Yeah, just the thing that makes you feel like such a good mommy! :) I just smiled and said, "yeah, I'm not one of those who makes it look easy."
I am the mom I never wanted to be: the frazzle, dazzle queen. But, I've got three kids I love a ton and three kids who, God willing, will learn to be incredibly gracious to others who, like their momma, fumble through life while trying real hard to make it look good.
Here are the pictures of Judah's lip later that day when all the blood stopped flowing and he stopped crying:
And, here's a very tired mommy at the day's end who was attacked by plastic eggs while she slept:
Shortly after we arrived, Judah fell and cut his lip open rather badly. At the time, we couldn't decipher what he had cut; we just saw the blood. Any mom knows facial bleeds are the worst, especially the mouth. It seemed to take forever to get it to stop bleeding and even longer to get Judah to stop crying. I'm sure after a half hour, people were wondering why we were even still at the party. But, hey, we don't come by social events that the entire family can attend too often. So, I was determined to stick it out!
Judah did calm down and eventually began to play again with the other kids, but he fell at least 3 or 4 more times that day. Not his day I guess. Tucker was in true 2 yr. old form, saying "no" to me any time I called his name, and Bella refused to sleep making her rather cranky and unable to put down. We really weren't able to participate with any of the planned activities because we were just a bit overwhelmed. My friend who hosted the party said to me at one point during the party, "I'm exhausted just watching you." :) Yeah, just the thing that makes you feel like such a good mommy! :) I just smiled and said, "yeah, I'm not one of those who makes it look easy."
I am the mom I never wanted to be: the frazzle, dazzle queen. But, I've got three kids I love a ton and three kids who, God willing, will learn to be incredibly gracious to others who, like their momma, fumble through life while trying real hard to make it look good.
Here are the pictures of Judah's lip later that day when all the blood stopped flowing and he stopped crying:
And, here's a very tired mommy at the day's end who was attacked by plastic eggs while she slept:
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Some New Favorites
I thought I'd post some new favorite photos I recently had developed of the kiddos. Bella is about 2 1/2 months in these photos and the boys are about 4 months shy of turning 3.
She is definitely more than a tax deduction, but given that she has a CPA for a daddy makes that shirt all the more hilarious, doesn't it?!
Can you guess which one's Judah and which is Tucker? :)
She is definitely more than a tax deduction, but given that she has a CPA for a daddy makes that shirt all the more hilarious, doesn't it?!
Can you guess which one's Judah and which is Tucker? :)
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Perception vs. Reality
Because we have a son with SWS, Lawrence and I have become apart of the Sturge-Weber Foundation . We receive a newsletter from them a couple times a year called, Branching Out. In it's most recent publication, there was an article entitled, "Perception vs. Reality" written by Rhonda Finley, mom of a child with SWS, Ryan. I wanted to post it here as I felt it captures so well how Lawrence and I feel about our lot with Judah.
SWF [Sturge-Weber Foundation] Partners were asked to send us their observations and experiences on the perceptions the general public, friends and acquaintances have revealed to them and how it matches with the lives they are living.
One thing I hear a lot is "Wow...I don't know how you do it. I could never handle a child with so many disabiliites. I couldn't do it. You must be so strong. " My standard answer is something like, "I didn't have this child because I'm strong. I became strong through my child. And guess what---you too would become strong if he were your child. It's not a choice; it's a responsibility driven by a powerful love."
It's amazing how, as a parent of a child with SWS [Sturge Weber Syndrome], KTS [Klippel Trenaunay Syndrome] and PWS [Port Wine Stain], we learn to be very assertive, deal with adversity, almost on a daily basis (every time you take your child to the grocery store for example) and become the advocate you never thought you could. We were forced out of our comfort zones, stepped out of our protective coating and learned how to deal with the world as it comes at us, sometimes it's hard and fast and it hurts.
The decisions we face are no less than surreal--do we increase the medication, change a medication or is it time to cut some of our child's brain out?* Will that help? Will he survive? How will this affect our lives? The funny thing is no one can answer those questions. At the same time, we learn how wonderful life really is. Each step, every word, all the laughter and smiles, the hugs and kisses, the normal challenges of everyday things---these things are special. I believe we have an increased awareness and appreciation for what most people take for granted. This is what I would tell the public.
*a hemispherectomy is the removal of a part of the brain which is done in SWS patients whose seizures are uncontrollable otherwise and for whom the benefits of such a surgery outweigh the risks. Thankfully, we have not had to come close to facing this possibility for Judah as he seems to have no brain involvement to date.
As challenging and exhausting it can be to care for Judah at times in regards to his SWS, we give thanks that it is not as hard as it could be. God has shown us much mercy; nevertheless, what we do face has produced in us a greater appreciation for all we see Judah and our other children learning and accomplishing. We have only to give thanks.
SWF [Sturge-Weber Foundation] Partners were asked to send us their observations and experiences on the perceptions the general public, friends and acquaintances have revealed to them and how it matches with the lives they are living.
One thing I hear a lot is "Wow...I don't know how you do it. I could never handle a child with so many disabiliites. I couldn't do it. You must be so strong. " My standard answer is something like, "I didn't have this child because I'm strong. I became strong through my child. And guess what---you too would become strong if he were your child. It's not a choice; it's a responsibility driven by a powerful love."
It's amazing how, as a parent of a child with SWS [Sturge Weber Syndrome], KTS [Klippel Trenaunay Syndrome] and PWS [Port Wine Stain], we learn to be very assertive, deal with adversity, almost on a daily basis (every time you take your child to the grocery store for example) and become the advocate you never thought you could. We were forced out of our comfort zones, stepped out of our protective coating and learned how to deal with the world as it comes at us, sometimes it's hard and fast and it hurts.
The decisions we face are no less than surreal--do we increase the medication, change a medication or is it time to cut some of our child's brain out?* Will that help? Will he survive? How will this affect our lives? The funny thing is no one can answer those questions. At the same time, we learn how wonderful life really is. Each step, every word, all the laughter and smiles, the hugs and kisses, the normal challenges of everyday things---these things are special. I believe we have an increased awareness and appreciation for what most people take for granted. This is what I would tell the public.
*a hemispherectomy is the removal of a part of the brain which is done in SWS patients whose seizures are uncontrollable otherwise and for whom the benefits of such a surgery outweigh the risks. Thankfully, we have not had to come close to facing this possibility for Judah as he seems to have no brain involvement to date.
As challenging and exhausting it can be to care for Judah at times in regards to his SWS, we give thanks that it is not as hard as it could be. God has shown us much mercy; nevertheless, what we do face has produced in us a greater appreciation for all we see Judah and our other children learning and accomplishing. We have only to give thanks.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Who's Testing Who?
James 1:2, 3 says, "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness."
So often when I'm walking through "trials of various kinds", I only feel that I am the one being tested. God is testing me in order to bring about steadfastness and other Christ-like character. While this is true, this morning God provided a different perspective on trials. When we walk through trials, it is not only we who are being tested; it is also God and His Word that are being tested and as I have found, always proven true.
Last week I found myself in the midst of a trial, the trial of caring for sick kids. Tucker woke up one night with diarrhea and vomiting. We were up with him several times throughout the night, did 3 loads of laundry before the night was over, gave several baths, and was even up to greet the sunrise this morning. It wasn't a cheery greeting, mind you. This was all after caring for Judah for the three days who had also had the stomach bug.
One morning as I tried to prepare myself for the long day ahead of me, my husband having a networking event in the evening, I began to think about putting God's Word to the test. I thought of these particular promises found in scripture:
For nothing will be impossible with God. Luke 1:37
I can do all things through him who strengthens me. Phil. 4:13
...but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;they shall mount up with wings like eagles;they shall run and not be weary;they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
My prayer that morning went something like this, "God, this is what your Word says, so let me see you come through today. Let me see you be true to Your Word." Now, while this may sound and can be the prayer of a cynic, by the power of the Holy Spirit I was able to offer it as a prayer of faith, knowing that God would be up for the challenge, so to speak.
When we're walking through trials of various kinds, remember we are not the only ones being put to the test. God and His Word is being put to test, and you will find it is an opportunity to see the faithfulness of God and certainty of His Word.
So often when I'm walking through "trials of various kinds", I only feel that I am the one being tested. God is testing me in order to bring about steadfastness and other Christ-like character. While this is true, this morning God provided a different perspective on trials. When we walk through trials, it is not only we who are being tested; it is also God and His Word that are being tested and as I have found, always proven true.
Last week I found myself in the midst of a trial, the trial of caring for sick kids. Tucker woke up one night with diarrhea and vomiting. We were up with him several times throughout the night, did 3 loads of laundry before the night was over, gave several baths, and was even up to greet the sunrise this morning. It wasn't a cheery greeting, mind you. This was all after caring for Judah for the three days who had also had the stomach bug.
One morning as I tried to prepare myself for the long day ahead of me, my husband having a networking event in the evening, I began to think about putting God's Word to the test. I thought of these particular promises found in scripture:
For nothing will be impossible with God. Luke 1:37
I can do all things through him who strengthens me. Phil. 4:13
...but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;they shall mount up with wings like eagles;they shall run and not be weary;they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
My prayer that morning went something like this, "God, this is what your Word says, so let me see you come through today. Let me see you be true to Your Word." Now, while this may sound and can be the prayer of a cynic, by the power of the Holy Spirit I was able to offer it as a prayer of faith, knowing that God would be up for the challenge, so to speak.
When we're walking through trials of various kinds, remember we are not the only ones being put to the test. God and His Word is being put to test, and you will find it is an opportunity to see the faithfulness of God and certainty of His Word.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Why One Should Not Bother Cleaning Her Windows with Toddlers in the Home:
Besides the obvious: their fingerprints end up all over the window only seconds to minutes after you've cleaned it making this a very futile endeavor, there's the less than obvious but very real possibility of one child spraying the other child in the face with the Windex that's left on the stairs to be taken upstairs on the next trip. Yes, I had a bad mommy moment today, but don't we all?!
I did leave the Windex within reach of my two near 3 yr. old boys, one of whom (will remain unnamed) sprayed the other in the eyes. For your reference, Windex is seemingly rather harmless when sprayed in the eyes with it per the Windex company people, but if your child has eye issues, you may want to call your eye doctor just to make sure no further action is necessary. (Guess that little bit of information gives away who sprayed who, huh?!) :)
All parties involved in our little incident today seem to be fine, but this momma is going to think twice next time she gets the compulsion to clean her windows. What was I thinking?!
I did leave the Windex within reach of my two near 3 yr. old boys, one of whom (will remain unnamed) sprayed the other in the eyes. For your reference, Windex is seemingly rather harmless when sprayed in the eyes with it per the Windex company people, but if your child has eye issues, you may want to call your eye doctor just to make sure no further action is necessary. (Guess that little bit of information gives away who sprayed who, huh?!) :)
All parties involved in our little incident today seem to be fine, but this momma is going to think twice next time she gets the compulsion to clean her windows. What was I thinking?!
Monday, May 07, 2007
The Stomach Bug Strikes Again
Yes, it's true. It seems we've picked up a stomach bug again. Judah had diarrhea all morning and just threw up during his nap. I was really hoping it was just all the sugar he ate this weekend at the birthday parties, but the throwing up part makes me think it's more likely some virus. And, given we were all over Hopkins on Friday (just about the easiest place to pick up viruses/illnesses of all kinds), I'm thinking we got it from there.
The unfortunate thing is that we probably exposed just about as many families as we could this weekend, having attended two birthday parties with the kids and church on Sunday. Of course, there was no way to anticipate that Judah would be sick today, but I still feel really badly for having exposed people to him. If you happen to have seen us this weekend and your kids get sick, I'm really sorry. Don't hate us forever! :)
So, into hiding we go again. Of course, we'd appreciate your prayers for our health, and that by a miracle, the rest of us would remain healthy, especially Bella. Please pray that those who were exposed to my kids this weekend would not get sick either.
Thanks so much.
The unfortunate thing is that we probably exposed just about as many families as we could this weekend, having attended two birthday parties with the kids and church on Sunday. Of course, there was no way to anticipate that Judah would be sick today, but I still feel really badly for having exposed people to him. If you happen to have seen us this weekend and your kids get sick, I'm really sorry. Don't hate us forever! :)
So, into hiding we go again. Of course, we'd appreciate your prayers for our health, and that by a miracle, the rest of us would remain healthy, especially Bella. Please pray that those who were exposed to my kids this weekend would not get sick either.
Thanks so much.
Friday, May 04, 2007
God's Kindness in the Details
I'm not sure if it's just that I'm getting used to craziness of our life as normal or if God was especially kind to us today (probably a combination of both), but today went so much better than good. At times throughout the day, I almost felt like I was floating, like God was just lifting me above the circumstances and allowing me to float through the day. It's really indescribable, but His presence and providence was so evident to me all day long.
It started by the fact that we got three kids out the door BEFORE I even had planned to be out the door this morning. Three separate diaper bags packed, three kids and two adults fed breakfast, two asthma treatments administered and diapers changed all before 9:30 a.m. I even walked out with makeup on and my hair done!!! In our house, this is nothing short of truly amazing!
We could tell Tucker was picking up on the fact that he was going to be left behind today, and that was seriously tugging at my heart. From the get go, we threw ourselves on God's mercy, petitioning Him for wisdom to help shepherd our son's heart through circumstances that are not common to most 2 1/2 yr. old little boys. We prayed as a family right before we dropped Tucker off and felt confident that God would remain true to His promise to 'go before and come behind us' today, making all kinds of provision where needed.
Tucker ended up doing very well with the sitter, friends of ours, the Kilbanes (thank you, guys!!), who have two little buddies around his age. He obeyed very well, took his nap and seemed rather well adjusted when we picked him up at the end of the day. Thank you, Lord!!
My traffic savvy husband averted a major backup on I-95 and managed to get us in the city with time to spare....so much time that we were even able to stop at a city park (a very nice city park) to give Judah some time to play!
We made Bella's appointment on time and did not have to wait very long before we were seen. All the while, Judah was such a pleasant companion, sitting still in the waiting room, eating his goldfish and reading his book. Our visit with the laryngologist was reassuring in the respect that he saw nothing in his exam of Bella or looking over the notes on her that alarmed him. He feels that as long as we are able to keep the reflux under control and continue to see her grow, we should be fine just waiting on time to make her airway stronger.
The endoscopy was not fun. She screamed like a crazy woman, but it was over very quickly and I did not have to hold her down as a nurse was called in for that. She calmed down soon after I was able to hold her and was an absolute peach the rest of the day. She was such a good girl, sleeping most of the rest of the afternoon, that I forgot to change her diaper ALL day!! This proved to be the only snag in the day as when I pulled her out of her carseat once we were home, I saw that she had a major poop thru, all the way up to her armpit...poor girl. Bad mommy. :(
Bella's appointment went so well and so quick that we were able to take a somewhat leisurely lunch with Judah in the outpatient cafeteria. Judah even got french fries which I'm sure made his day. Prior to lunch, we had to apply the numbing cream which went so much better than it has gone many times in the past. For a while, I had given up outlining the area to be worked on with a highlighter because Judah would just flip out on me. But, today we were able to talk to him, make it fun, and he allowed me to outline the area on his face that was to be lasered. Lawrence and I worked together to get the cream on, and Judah did rather well with that, too.
He probably looked like a burn victim to anyone who saw us, but we just don't seem to notice the stares much anymore. We ate our lunch, found a fun little patio to play on for a little while and even had enough time to walk from the outpatient building to the new children's outpatient clinic a few blocks away where Judah's appointment was. God not only provided a beautiful day so that we could walk, but also the time we needed AND a construction site where a bunch of dump trucks, bulldozers and cranes were working for Judah to enjoy on the way. It was at this point that I was so struck with God's kindness to us in the details of our day that I began to tear up.
I had been dreading these appointments all week, had a restless night's sleep last night and drove down to Hopkins still battling anxiety even after we had prayed as a family. Several times today, in the midst of just doing what is "normal" life to me, I was struck by how not normal our life is. Whether that was the enemy devising to discourage me or my own sinful flesh looking to feel sorry for myself, who knows? But, God met me and encouraged my heart so greatly by showing His kindness to us in the details.
When we arrived at the outpatient clinic for Judah's appointment, he realized that it was his turn to see the doctor. At one point, he looked at Lawrence and me and said, "It's my turn to be brave." Well, as you can imagine, I wanted to lose it. My little man is so consistently a picture to me of God's amazing grace, as I see God providing so much strength and contentment to Judah to walk out the lot God has assigned to him.
And, brave he was. Each time we go for laser treatments, Judah makes it a little further into the appointment before he starts to cry. He used to cry when he saw the doctor. Today, he was giving him high fives. Then, we could make it to the laser room before he'd start to cry; today he was exploring the 'new' room. Today, he made it all the way to laying down on the table before he started to scream. By the time I saw him in the waiting room, he was all smiles with lollipop in hand, being commended by the nurse.
Before I knew it, we were on our way home, another dreaded day behind us. And, all I could say was, "Thank you, Lord".
It started by the fact that we got three kids out the door BEFORE I even had planned to be out the door this morning. Three separate diaper bags packed, three kids and two adults fed breakfast, two asthma treatments administered and diapers changed all before 9:30 a.m. I even walked out with makeup on and my hair done!!! In our house, this is nothing short of truly amazing!
We could tell Tucker was picking up on the fact that he was going to be left behind today, and that was seriously tugging at my heart. From the get go, we threw ourselves on God's mercy, petitioning Him for wisdom to help shepherd our son's heart through circumstances that are not common to most 2 1/2 yr. old little boys. We prayed as a family right before we dropped Tucker off and felt confident that God would remain true to His promise to 'go before and come behind us' today, making all kinds of provision where needed.
Tucker ended up doing very well with the sitter, friends of ours, the Kilbanes (thank you, guys!!), who have two little buddies around his age. He obeyed very well, took his nap and seemed rather well adjusted when we picked him up at the end of the day. Thank you, Lord!!
My traffic savvy husband averted a major backup on I-95 and managed to get us in the city with time to spare....so much time that we were even able to stop at a city park (a very nice city park) to give Judah some time to play!
We made Bella's appointment on time and did not have to wait very long before we were seen. All the while, Judah was such a pleasant companion, sitting still in the waiting room, eating his goldfish and reading his book. Our visit with the laryngologist was reassuring in the respect that he saw nothing in his exam of Bella or looking over the notes on her that alarmed him. He feels that as long as we are able to keep the reflux under control and continue to see her grow, we should be fine just waiting on time to make her airway stronger.
The endoscopy was not fun. She screamed like a crazy woman, but it was over very quickly and I did not have to hold her down as a nurse was called in for that. She calmed down soon after I was able to hold her and was an absolute peach the rest of the day. She was such a good girl, sleeping most of the rest of the afternoon, that I forgot to change her diaper ALL day!! This proved to be the only snag in the day as when I pulled her out of her carseat once we were home, I saw that she had a major poop thru, all the way up to her armpit...poor girl. Bad mommy. :(
Bella's appointment went so well and so quick that we were able to take a somewhat leisurely lunch with Judah in the outpatient cafeteria. Judah even got french fries which I'm sure made his day. Prior to lunch, we had to apply the numbing cream which went so much better than it has gone many times in the past. For a while, I had given up outlining the area to be worked on with a highlighter because Judah would just flip out on me. But, today we were able to talk to him, make it fun, and he allowed me to outline the area on his face that was to be lasered. Lawrence and I worked together to get the cream on, and Judah did rather well with that, too.
He probably looked like a burn victim to anyone who saw us, but we just don't seem to notice the stares much anymore. We ate our lunch, found a fun little patio to play on for a little while and even had enough time to walk from the outpatient building to the new children's outpatient clinic a few blocks away where Judah's appointment was. God not only provided a beautiful day so that we could walk, but also the time we needed AND a construction site where a bunch of dump trucks, bulldozers and cranes were working for Judah to enjoy on the way. It was at this point that I was so struck with God's kindness to us in the details of our day that I began to tear up.
I had been dreading these appointments all week, had a restless night's sleep last night and drove down to Hopkins still battling anxiety even after we had prayed as a family. Several times today, in the midst of just doing what is "normal" life to me, I was struck by how not normal our life is. Whether that was the enemy devising to discourage me or my own sinful flesh looking to feel sorry for myself, who knows? But, God met me and encouraged my heart so greatly by showing His kindness to us in the details.
When we arrived at the outpatient clinic for Judah's appointment, he realized that it was his turn to see the doctor. At one point, he looked at Lawrence and me and said, "It's my turn to be brave." Well, as you can imagine, I wanted to lose it. My little man is so consistently a picture to me of God's amazing grace, as I see God providing so much strength and contentment to Judah to walk out the lot God has assigned to him.
And, brave he was. Each time we go for laser treatments, Judah makes it a little further into the appointment before he starts to cry. He used to cry when he saw the doctor. Today, he was giving him high fives. Then, we could make it to the laser room before he'd start to cry; today he was exploring the 'new' room. Today, he made it all the way to laying down on the table before he started to scream. By the time I saw him in the waiting room, he was all smiles with lollipop in hand, being commended by the nurse.
Before I knew it, we were on our way home, another dreaded day behind us. And, all I could say was, "Thank you, Lord".
Thursday, May 03, 2007
A Real Doozy
We have a real doozy of a day tomorrow. We will be taking Bella and Judah to Hopkins for dr's appointments. At 11:20 a.m., Bella will see a laryngologist who will take a scope through her nose and down her throat to see if her airway defect (laryngo/tracheomalacia) has improved at all since birth. Needless to say, I'm not so thrilled to be subjecting my little girl to such a procedure, but we feel it's what is best. She had this done while in the NICU at Hopkins, but we weren't there to witness it. Tomorrow, I will remain by her side, praying the entire time. She will not be put under anesthesia which I'm grateful for in one respect and wish otherwise in another. I will comfort myself with the thought that she will not remember any of this.
As for Judah, he has a laser treatment on his face. His appointment is at 2:30. Numbing cream needs to be applied at 12:30, 2 hours ahead of the treatment. If you haven't noticed, it's going to be a little tight tomorrow, but thankfully Lawrence will be coming with me to help ensure we can pull it off.
Laser appointments are never fun; Judah always screams. I'm not sure how he'll do having the cream applied somewhere in transit tomorrow...whether in the car, in the outpatient clinic bathroom or somewhere else. He's been doing so well with his other doctor's appointments, but I think it'll take him much longer to willingly subject himself to the laser treatments.
Please pray that:
As for Judah, he has a laser treatment on his face. His appointment is at 2:30. Numbing cream needs to be applied at 12:30, 2 hours ahead of the treatment. If you haven't noticed, it's going to be a little tight tomorrow, but thankfully Lawrence will be coming with me to help ensure we can pull it off.
Laser appointments are never fun; Judah always screams. I'm not sure how he'll do having the cream applied somewhere in transit tomorrow...whether in the car, in the outpatient clinic bathroom or somewhere else. He's been doing so well with his other doctor's appointments, but I think it'll take him much longer to willingly subject himself to the laser treatments.
Please pray that:
- Our day will be characterized by many evidences of God's grace and mercy.
- Bella will be well enough to have the scope done (she just started with a cold).
- Bella will cooperate (as much as a 3 month old can) with the procedure and that her airway will be improved since birth.
- Judah will allow Lawrence to apply the numbing cream and cooperate with the laser treatment.
- Judah will have minimal if any bruising/blisters from the treatment.
- All appointments will run on time and we'll be able to get to Judah's laser appt. on time. His laser Tx is in a different building than Bella's procedure.
God willing, if everything goes well enough, we have a fun weekend for the kids ahead of us. We have a little buddy's 1st birthday party on Saturday to attend and another friend's 4th birthday party to attend on Sunday. Getting birthday cake two days in a row is like dying and going to Heaven for my little buddies. So, I'm hoping we'll be able to swing it!!
Thanks for praying.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Our Morning Excitement
(MOM...Don't read this post; trust me!)
Our friend and neighbor, Rudy, came over to play a little bit this morning, and on his way out the front door, he spotted something in our flower beds that looked interesting to him. His mom was putting her other child, Lucy, in the stroller and turned around to notice Rudy crouching down to "pet" something. That something was a snake! (Mom, I told you not to read this.)
I was puzzled when Heather didn't whisk Rudy away from the thing but instead gently pulled Rudy back to create a little distance and then allowed him to stare at the thing for minutes. She said she didn't want him to be afraid. So, given the fact that I have two boys who do tend to be more timid with such things, I thought I should follow her good example and have the boys go outside to see this bit of nature, too.
We all remained a safe distance from the snake, not knowing what kind it was. After a few minutes we decided our boys had had their little science lesson for the day, and we could all go inside now. When I emailed my husband to tell him about it, he asked me to call my father-in-law over to get the snake out of our bush. So, I called and over he came with a long log, a long pole and an intention to get that snake.
When he saw that it wasn't a simple black snake, he decided he was going to kill it and that he needed my help. "Me, you want ME to help you...to help you kill a .....snake?! Surely, you're joking" is what I thought to myself. But, again to set the example to my boys of bravery, I pitched in and helped my FIL get that snake. He had me hold the log down tightly on its tale while he took the pole to get its head out of the bush. I'll not share any more details but to say the snake is now dead and sitting in a clear trash bag on our deck so that Lawrence can look it up later on the internet to see what kind of snake we had in our bush just in case any of its brothers or sisters decide to show up at our house for vengeance. :0
Our friend and neighbor, Rudy, came over to play a little bit this morning, and on his way out the front door, he spotted something in our flower beds that looked interesting to him. His mom was putting her other child, Lucy, in the stroller and turned around to notice Rudy crouching down to "pet" something. That something was a snake! (Mom, I told you not to read this.)
I was puzzled when Heather didn't whisk Rudy away from the thing but instead gently pulled Rudy back to create a little distance and then allowed him to stare at the thing for minutes. She said she didn't want him to be afraid. So, given the fact that I have two boys who do tend to be more timid with such things, I thought I should follow her good example and have the boys go outside to see this bit of nature, too.
We all remained a safe distance from the snake, not knowing what kind it was. After a few minutes we decided our boys had had their little science lesson for the day, and we could all go inside now. When I emailed my husband to tell him about it, he asked me to call my father-in-law over to get the snake out of our bush. So, I called and over he came with a long log, a long pole and an intention to get that snake.
When he saw that it wasn't a simple black snake, he decided he was going to kill it and that he needed my help. "Me, you want ME to help you...to help you kill a .....snake?! Surely, you're joking" is what I thought to myself. But, again to set the example to my boys of bravery, I pitched in and helped my FIL get that snake. He had me hold the log down tightly on its tale while he took the pole to get its head out of the bush. I'll not share any more details but to say the snake is now dead and sitting in a clear trash bag on our deck so that Lawrence can look it up later on the internet to see what kind of snake we had in our bush just in case any of its brothers or sisters decide to show up at our house for vengeance. :0
Monday, April 30, 2007
Growing Up
To say we have picky eaters is an understatement. Oh, I know every toddler is a picky eater, but mine have elimated entire food groups from their diet....like meat (and "real" meat anyway)and veggies. Most fruits get the cut as well, but they will occasionally surprise me. And, what they do eat, they don't necessarily eat much of. This morning, though, they gave me a glimpse into the season I know is coming: the teen years when boys, no matter how picky, eat like a horse! I know because I watched four of my brother eat my mom out of house and home! I was amazed at how much they could pack in, and often just as a snack!
This morning, the boys ate an entire bowl of oatmeal, an entire piece of toast, 2 spoonfuls of peanut butter (a food they've only recently accepted) and a sippy of milk!!! They must be growing.
And, on the note of growing up, I've been hearing Tucker call me "mom" instead of "mommy" lately. It's sort of making me sad, and even though I know I should just let him address me in this more 'grown up' way, there's a part of me that wants to ask him to please still call me "mommy". :)
This morning, the boys ate an entire bowl of oatmeal, an entire piece of toast, 2 spoonfuls of peanut butter (a food they've only recently accepted) and a sippy of milk!!! They must be growing.
And, on the note of growing up, I've been hearing Tucker call me "mom" instead of "mommy" lately. It's sort of making me sad, and even though I know I should just let him address me in this more 'grown up' way, there's a part of me that wants to ask him to please still call me "mommy". :)
Saturday, April 28, 2007
A Very Rare Occurence
All the people in my house are asleep all at once, except for me. And, actually Bella has yet to fall asleep, but she's on her way. I should be taking advantage of such an opportunity by catching a few winks myself, but I'm going to blog instead. My friend, Lydia, sent this to me via email and I thought I'd post my responses here on the blog. If you think it's fun, copy and paste the questions and post it on your blog or shoot me an email with your answers. I don't normally do these, but I have a second and don't feel like folding laundry. :)
1. Where do you work? From home as a wife, mommy and homemaker.
2. What color are your socks right now? Barefoot.
3.What are you listening to right now? The noisy breathing of my beautiful baby girl along with the peaceful inhale/exhales of my gorgeous husband.
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Does a cold eeze count? Otherwise, a pita pizza.
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Love to.
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Some kind of earthy green.
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My father-in-law.
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes and I wasn’t expecting her to email this to me, so now I’m hoping she’ll read this blog.
9. How old are you today? 30
10. Favorite drink? I have a few: diet caffeine free coke, herbal teas, iced coffees from Dunkin Donuts and good ol' fashioned water!
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? Football--Pro. and Highschool.
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes and have many bad hair stories to share sometime.
13. Any pets? Nope and don't want any...ever.
14. Favorite food? chocolate if that counts as a food.
15. What was the last movie you watched? Chariots of Fire
16. Favorite day of the year? Easter Sunday
17. What do you do to vent anger? Oh, not anything productive or God-glorifying most of the time: throw things, hit things, slam dishes, doors, yell. Occasionally, I'll clean like a crazy woman or run.
18. Favorite childhood toy? Water babies (something my sister and I created ourselves).
19. Cherries or Blueberries? Bing Cherries love 'em; Bluberries, in milk with sugar or frozen with lemon yogurt.
20. Do you want your friends to post this? Pretty please?
21. Who is most likely to respond? Zoanna if she hasn't already and if she's feeling better (hope
so).
22. Who is least likely to respond? Amanda Kim--but I love ya nonetheless. :)
23. Living arrangements? Town home
24. When was the last time you cried? teared up over the V.Tech coverage.
25. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes and clothing I need to send to Beth Chase.
26. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? Well, if my friend, Shannon Fisher is still reading this..it's her. We've known each other from birth and ended up as roommates our freshman year of college. Are you out there?
27. What did you do last night? Inputted receipts into Quicken, sitting next to my hubby who was also working, both watching a very stupid show, "Swapping Spouses" (or whatever it's called)
28. Favorite smells: my babies' breaths, fresh spring air.
29. What do you regret the most in life? that I gave my parents such a hard time as a teenager.
30. What are you most afraid of? My hubby dying on me.
31. What are your favorite types of hamburgers? Veggie
32. Favorite breed of dog? Not a dog person.
33. Number of keys on your key ring? 3
34. How many years at your current job? 3
35. Favorite day of the week? Sunday
36. Which states have you lived in? Maryland and Pennsylvania.
37. Favorite Holiday? Easter
38. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? No
1. Where do you work? From home as a wife, mommy and homemaker.
2. What color are your socks right now? Barefoot.
3.What are you listening to right now? The noisy breathing of my beautiful baby girl along with the peaceful inhale/exhales of my gorgeous husband.
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Does a cold eeze count? Otherwise, a pita pizza.
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Love to.
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Some kind of earthy green.
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My father-in-law.
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yes and I wasn’t expecting her to email this to me, so now I’m hoping she’ll read this blog.
9. How old are you today? 30
10. Favorite drink? I have a few: diet caffeine free coke, herbal teas, iced coffees from Dunkin Donuts and good ol' fashioned water!
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? Football--Pro. and Highschool.
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yes and have many bad hair stories to share sometime.
13. Any pets? Nope and don't want any...ever.
14. Favorite food? chocolate if that counts as a food.
15. What was the last movie you watched? Chariots of Fire
16. Favorite day of the year? Easter Sunday
17. What do you do to vent anger? Oh, not anything productive or God-glorifying most of the time: throw things, hit things, slam dishes, doors, yell. Occasionally, I'll clean like a crazy woman or run.
18. Favorite childhood toy? Water babies (something my sister and I created ourselves).
19. Cherries or Blueberries? Bing Cherries love 'em; Bluberries, in milk with sugar or frozen with lemon yogurt.
20. Do you want your friends to post this? Pretty please?
21. Who is most likely to respond? Zoanna if she hasn't already and if she's feeling better (hope
so).
22. Who is least likely to respond? Amanda Kim--but I love ya nonetheless. :)
23. Living arrangements? Town home
24. When was the last time you cried? teared up over the V.Tech coverage.
25. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes and clothing I need to send to Beth Chase.
26. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? Well, if my friend, Shannon Fisher is still reading this..it's her. We've known each other from birth and ended up as roommates our freshman year of college. Are you out there?
27. What did you do last night? Inputted receipts into Quicken, sitting next to my hubby who was also working, both watching a very stupid show, "Swapping Spouses" (or whatever it's called)
28. Favorite smells: my babies' breaths, fresh spring air.
29. What do you regret the most in life? that I gave my parents such a hard time as a teenager.
30. What are you most afraid of? My hubby dying on me.
31. What are your favorite types of hamburgers? Veggie
32. Favorite breed of dog? Not a dog person.
33. Number of keys on your key ring? 3
34. How many years at your current job? 3
35. Favorite day of the week? Sunday
36. Which states have you lived in? Maryland and Pennsylvania.
37. Favorite Holiday? Easter
38. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? No
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Other Recipes
Shrimp Salad:
If buying frozen shrimp (not cooked), thaw in water; clean by splitting the backs.
Put together a marinade of beer or wine (a pink blush), Old Bay, white pepper, 1t. italian seasoning. Marinade in sealed container for at least 1/2 hour.
Drain marinade into saucepan and boil with a little water added to it if needed. When water is boiled, throw in shrimp and 'steam' for not very long...just until it turns pink. Drain, cut up shrimp and add mayo to taste. Serve on Kaiser rolls.
Creamy Tomato Soup:
1 medium onion, chopped
2 T. butter
2 cans (10 3/4 oz each) condensed tomato soup
1 can (14 oz.) diced tomatoes, undrained
1 1/2 cups milk
1 t. sugar
1/2-1 t. dried basil
1/2-1 t. paprika
1/8-1/4 t. garlic powder
1 pkg. (8 oz) cream cheese, at room temp. & cubed (I usually use only half or less)
In a saucepan, saute onion in butter until tender. Stir in tomato soups and tomatoes, milk, sugar, basil, paprika and garlic powder. Bring to boil. Reduce heat; cover and simmer for 10 minutes. Stir in cream cheese until melted. Great to enjoy with grilled cheese sandwiches. YUMMY!!
Quesadillas con huevos, frijoles y avocados (don't know the word for avocado in spanish) :)
Simply make cheese quesadillas, fry an egg, and heat up black beans in your microwave. I like to drain the beans and rinse them to minimize the sodium. Peel and slice avocado.
To assemble:
quesadillas cut in triangles go on the bottom, followed by a bed of black beans, fried egg on top of that and then sliced avocado. I like to sprinkle a little paprika on top for extra color to an already very colorful dish. Enjoy!
If you want me to post any other recipes from my summer meal list, let me know in the comments. Otherwise, I'm hoping to move on to other topics real soon. :)
If buying frozen shrimp (not cooked), thaw in water; clean by splitting the backs.
Put together a marinade of beer or wine (a pink blush), Old Bay, white pepper, 1t. italian seasoning. Marinade in sealed container for at least 1/2 hour.
Drain marinade into saucepan and boil with a little water added to it if needed. When water is boiled, throw in shrimp and 'steam' for not very long...just until it turns pink. Drain, cut up shrimp and add mayo to taste. Serve on Kaiser rolls.
Creamy Tomato Soup:
1 medium onion, chopped
2 T. butter
2 cans (10 3/4 oz each) condensed tomato soup
1 can (14 oz.) diced tomatoes, undrained
1 1/2 cups milk
1 t. sugar
1/2-1 t. dried basil
1/2-1 t. paprika
1/8-1/4 t. garlic powder
1 pkg. (8 oz) cream cheese, at room temp. & cubed (I usually use only half or less)
In a saucepan, saute onion in butter until tender. Stir in tomato soups and tomatoes, milk, sugar, basil, paprika and garlic powder. Bring to boil. Reduce heat; cover and simmer for 10 minutes. Stir in cream cheese until melted. Great to enjoy with grilled cheese sandwiches. YUMMY!!
Quesadillas con huevos, frijoles y avocados (don't know the word for avocado in spanish) :)
Simply make cheese quesadillas, fry an egg, and heat up black beans in your microwave. I like to drain the beans and rinse them to minimize the sodium. Peel and slice avocado.
To assemble:
quesadillas cut in triangles go on the bottom, followed by a bed of black beans, fried egg on top of that and then sliced avocado. I like to sprinkle a little paprika on top for extra color to an already very colorful dish. Enjoy!
If you want me to post any other recipes from my summer meal list, let me know in the comments. Otherwise, I'm hoping to move on to other topics real soon. :)
Excellent and Easy
I tried a new recipe from Real Simple, and loved it. It was really simple to make, no oven required and tasted great! I will say the original recipe is not the healthiest, but there are ways to make it healthier. So, here it is along with my healthier substitutions.
Tortellini with bacon, greens, and brown butter (don't ya think this needs a different name?!)
1 pound cheese or meat tortellini (I use cheese)
4 ounces sliced bacon (I used turkey bacon)
6 T. unsalted butter (I used only 4 and will try Smart Balance or Olive Oil next time I make it)
2 cups arugula, about 1 bunch (I used fresh baby spinach)
1/4 t. kosher salt (I didn't use any)
1/4 t. black pepper (I didn't use any)
Cook the tortellini according to package directions. Meanwhile, cook the bacon in a large skillet over medium heat until crisp, 7 to 9 minutes. Reserve bacon and discard the drippings. Wipe out skillet and return to medium heat. Add the butter and brown. Remove from heat. Break bacon into small pieces and add to skillet with the arugula (spinach), salt, pepper and cooked tortellini. Toss well and divide among individual bowls. Serves 4.
I will try to post some of my other summer recipes sometime this week.
Tortellini with bacon, greens, and brown butter (don't ya think this needs a different name?!)
1 pound cheese or meat tortellini (I use cheese)
4 ounces sliced bacon (I used turkey bacon)
6 T. unsalted butter (I used only 4 and will try Smart Balance or Olive Oil next time I make it)
2 cups arugula, about 1 bunch (I used fresh baby spinach)
1/4 t. kosher salt (I didn't use any)
1/4 t. black pepper (I didn't use any)
Cook the tortellini according to package directions. Meanwhile, cook the bacon in a large skillet over medium heat until crisp, 7 to 9 minutes. Reserve bacon and discard the drippings. Wipe out skillet and return to medium heat. Add the butter and brown. Remove from heat. Break bacon into small pieces and add to skillet with the arugula (spinach), salt, pepper and cooked tortellini. Toss well and divide among individual bowls. Serves 4.
I will try to post some of my other summer recipes sometime this week.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
A Great Parenting Resource
If you are a parent and trying to raise your children in a way that glorifies God, then you need encouragement on a daily basis. It is no small task to raise our children to love the Lord with all their heart, mind, soul and strength. May I recommend an excellent parenting series I have listened to that you may listen to free of charge, right online?! It is taught by Kenneth Maresco, a pastor on staff at Covenant Life Church in Gaithersburg, a church that is a part of our larger body of churches that belong to Sovereign Grace Ministries.
Here is the link for your listening pleasure and encouragement:
http://www.covlife.org/sermons/moremessages/parenttraining.php
Here is the link for your listening pleasure and encouragement:
http://www.covlife.org/sermons/moremessages/parenttraining.php
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
My Summer Meals List...
...so far.
I'm up to 17 different meal ideas and would like to get to about 25 to circulate through for the rest of the spring season and throughout the summer. Here's my list, and at the end of it, I'll post one of our favorite recipes. Let me know if you want recipes for any of the other things on this list. You will see, though, that my list is rather simple. Most of these things do not require a recipe; they're intuitive. It's almost embarrassing to post my list, but for any other mommas out there of young kiddos, you may appreciate seeing the reality of our very meager dinner options over here.
1. Pizza Bagels
2. Tomato Soup with grilled cheese--I have a special recipe for the tomato soup
3. Zuchinni Chowder
4. Taco Salad
5. Grilled Chicken Salad
6. Shrimp Salad Sandwiches--I have a great recipe from Doug Shriner
7. Spaghetti with meatballs
8. Pork BBQ sandwiches
9. Grilled meat with fresh fruit and veggies
10. Chicken Pot pie--I have a yummy new recipe I got from Allrecipes.com
11. Tortellini--I usually put it with spaghetti sauce, but I'm going to try a new recipe I found in Real Simple
12. Tuna melts
13. Egg salad pitas
14. White Chili--I have several recipes, but am still trying to find the best all around.
15. BLT’s
16. Quesadillas with egg, beans and avocado--This might sound like an odd combination, but I had it on a get away with my husband down at a little cafe in Solomon's Island, and it was amazing. Now, I make my own version of their dish.
17. Tortilla soup: recipe on Allrecipes.com
I can't remember if I've posted this recipe already or not, but it's for Zuchinni Chowder. It's a recipe my mom gave to me, and it is one of our all time favorite meals.
2 medium zuchini, chopped (I like larger chunks)
2 T. minced fresh parsley (or 1T. dried)
1t. dried basil
1/3 cup margarine or butter
1/3 cup flour
1t.salt
1/4 t. pepper
3 cups water
3 chicken bouillon cubes
1 t. lemon juice
1 (14 oz) can diced tomatoes, undrained
1 (12 oz) can evaporated milk
1 pkg (10 oz) frozen corn
1/4 cup grated Parm. cheese
2 cups shredded cheddar cheese (I NEVER add this b/c the soup is thick and rich enough without it, but it's in the original recipe, so I made sure to put it here).
pinch of sugar, optional
In a dutch oven or soup kettle, over medium heat, saute the zuchinni, parsley and basil in butter until veggies are tender. Stir in flour, salt, pepper. Gradually stir in water. Add bouillon and lemon juice; mix well. Bring to boil; cook and stir for 2 minutes. Add tomatoes, milk, corn; bring to boil. Reduce heat; cover and simmer for 5 minutes or until corn is tender. Just before serving, stir in cheeses until melted. Add sugar and garnish with parsley if desired.
Yields about 2 1/2 quarts.
Enjoy!
I'm up to 17 different meal ideas and would like to get to about 25 to circulate through for the rest of the spring season and throughout the summer. Here's my list, and at the end of it, I'll post one of our favorite recipes. Let me know if you want recipes for any of the other things on this list. You will see, though, that my list is rather simple. Most of these things do not require a recipe; they're intuitive. It's almost embarrassing to post my list, but for any other mommas out there of young kiddos, you may appreciate seeing the reality of our very meager dinner options over here.
1. Pizza Bagels
2. Tomato Soup with grilled cheese--I have a special recipe for the tomato soup
3. Zuchinni Chowder
4. Taco Salad
5. Grilled Chicken Salad
6. Shrimp Salad Sandwiches--I have a great recipe from Doug Shriner
7. Spaghetti with meatballs
8. Pork BBQ sandwiches
9. Grilled meat with fresh fruit and veggies
10. Chicken Pot pie--I have a yummy new recipe I got from Allrecipes.com
11. Tortellini--I usually put it with spaghetti sauce, but I'm going to try a new recipe I found in Real Simple
12. Tuna melts
13. Egg salad pitas
14. White Chili--I have several recipes, but am still trying to find the best all around.
15. BLT’s
16. Quesadillas with egg, beans and avocado--This might sound like an odd combination, but I had it on a get away with my husband down at a little cafe in Solomon's Island, and it was amazing. Now, I make my own version of their dish.
17. Tortilla soup: recipe on Allrecipes.com
I can't remember if I've posted this recipe already or not, but it's for Zuchinni Chowder. It's a recipe my mom gave to me, and it is one of our all time favorite meals.
2 medium zuchini, chopped (I like larger chunks)
2 T. minced fresh parsley (or 1T. dried)
1t. dried basil
1/3 cup margarine or butter
1/3 cup flour
1t.salt
1/4 t. pepper
3 cups water
3 chicken bouillon cubes
1 t. lemon juice
1 (14 oz) can diced tomatoes, undrained
1 (12 oz) can evaporated milk
1 pkg (10 oz) frozen corn
1/4 cup grated Parm. cheese
2 cups shredded cheddar cheese (I NEVER add this b/c the soup is thick and rich enough without it, but it's in the original recipe, so I made sure to put it here).
pinch of sugar, optional
In a dutch oven or soup kettle, over medium heat, saute the zuchinni, parsley and basil in butter until veggies are tender. Stir in flour, salt, pepper. Gradually stir in water. Add bouillon and lemon juice; mix well. Bring to boil; cook and stir for 2 minutes. Add tomatoes, milk, corn; bring to boil. Reduce heat; cover and simmer for 5 minutes or until corn is tender. Just before serving, stir in cheeses until melted. Add sugar and garnish with parsley if desired.
Yields about 2 1/2 quarts.
Enjoy!
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Several Things
1st: Ben and Jerry's is having a free icecream cone day. Go here to get more information and find a participating store nearest you.
2nd: Yesterday, I ventured down to Hopkins with Judah, Bella and my dear friend, De who was a great help and wonderful company. Judah had an EUA (evaluation under anesthesia) for his eyes, and things went much better than I anticipated them to go in my faithless heart. Before we took off for Hopkins very early in the morning, the Lord led me to Psalm 91 where I read some things that helped to bolster my faith for the day.
If you make the Most High your dwelling—even the LORD, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways
"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.
Ps. 91:9-11, 14-16
Judah's eyes looked good, glaucoma-wise--no need for surgery. Thank you, Lord!! There is something the surgeon continues to see in Judah's right optic nerve that is of concern to him, but not anything that seems emergent. It could just be the way Judah's nerve looks given all the vasculature in his head. We will follow up about this concern with Judah's neurologist probably sometime next month.
Having Bella along was not a problem. She slept almost the entire time and was ready to nurse at just the opportune moment. De had some one on one time with her while I cared for Judah in the post-op. room and then, she fell asleep again for our ride home.
Judah did great with the anesthesia; although still a bit groggy when we returned home. By evening, you would never have known he had been put under that morning; he was back to his rowdy self, enjoying rough-housing with his brother.
Finally, I'm sure by now you have read or heard about the horrific shooting incident at Virginia Tech yesterday. We have prayed several times in our home over the last several hours, and our thoughts are turned toward the relative insecurity of this life here on earth. This morning I read from Ephesians 1, and there is provided a wonderful promise in light of the many wrongs committed yesterday down in Blacksburg.
And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.
Ephesians 1:9,10
The commentary provided in my NIV Study Bible stated the following in regards to verse 10:
Paul uses a significant term here that not only has the idea of leadership but also was often used of adding up a column of figures. A contemporary way of putting it might be to say that in a world of confusion, where things do not "add up" or make sense, we look forward to the time when everything will be brought into meaningful relationship under the headship of Christ.
What a wonderful thing to set our minds upon as we think about and pray for the many people affected by yesterday's shootings. One day, Christ will right all the wrongs done here on earth. Thank you, Lord.
2nd: Yesterday, I ventured down to Hopkins with Judah, Bella and my dear friend, De who was a great help and wonderful company. Judah had an EUA (evaluation under anesthesia) for his eyes, and things went much better than I anticipated them to go in my faithless heart. Before we took off for Hopkins very early in the morning, the Lord led me to Psalm 91 where I read some things that helped to bolster my faith for the day.
If you make the Most High your dwelling—even the LORD, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways
"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.
Ps. 91:9-11, 14-16
Judah's eyes looked good, glaucoma-wise--no need for surgery. Thank you, Lord!! There is something the surgeon continues to see in Judah's right optic nerve that is of concern to him, but not anything that seems emergent. It could just be the way Judah's nerve looks given all the vasculature in his head. We will follow up about this concern with Judah's neurologist probably sometime next month.
Having Bella along was not a problem. She slept almost the entire time and was ready to nurse at just the opportune moment. De had some one on one time with her while I cared for Judah in the post-op. room and then, she fell asleep again for our ride home.
Judah did great with the anesthesia; although still a bit groggy when we returned home. By evening, you would never have known he had been put under that morning; he was back to his rowdy self, enjoying rough-housing with his brother.
Finally, I'm sure by now you have read or heard about the horrific shooting incident at Virginia Tech yesterday. We have prayed several times in our home over the last several hours, and our thoughts are turned toward the relative insecurity of this life here on earth. This morning I read from Ephesians 1, and there is provided a wonderful promise in light of the many wrongs committed yesterday down in Blacksburg.
And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.
Ephesians 1:9,10
The commentary provided in my NIV Study Bible stated the following in regards to verse 10:
Paul uses a significant term here that not only has the idea of leadership but also was often used of adding up a column of figures. A contemporary way of putting it might be to say that in a world of confusion, where things do not "add up" or make sense, we look forward to the time when everything will be brought into meaningful relationship under the headship of Christ.
What a wonderful thing to set our minds upon as we think about and pray for the many people affected by yesterday's shootings. One day, Christ will right all the wrongs done here on earth. Thank you, Lord.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Our Doctor Day
We had a busy day yesterday, but God's grace saw us through. I took Bella to the pulmonologist for a follow up visit in the morning and after sharing my observations of Bella over the last month, we decided to try yet another medication. So, Bella is now on three reflux medications. I'm never excited about giving my children prescription medications, but when it's needed I'm grateful they're so readily available to us. And, while our medical costs add up quickly, again I have to give thanks that God has always provided for us!
I rushed home to nurse Bella and then headed out again with the boys to pick up the prescriptions at Target, leaving Bella with my mother-in-law. That evening, we had another appointment with our pediatrician. It was Bella's 2 month check up, and Judah needed a pre-op. physical in order to go under anesthesia on Monday.
Bella is doing very well with her growth despite her breathing and reflux issues. She is in the 95th percentile for both height and weight!! This was so reassuring to me, and I give thanks for God sustaining and growing her. She also received her first round of immunizations which I never find easy to put my children through. But, I know it's for their best and for the good of others, so we do it. Today, however, she is having diarrhea. It could be a reaction to the shots, but I'm guessing that she, just like everyone else in our family but me so far, has fallen prey to this awful stomach virus. Please pray she'll be spared of the vomiting and high fever part of this virus and that she'll eat sufficiently to stay hydrated and out of the hospital.
While all the members of my family have been sick with the stomach virus, it's only been one at a time which has made it manageable. Thank you, Lord! I'm praying that if I do get it (and pray that I don't, please) that I'll get it on a weekend so that Lawrence can be home to care for the kids.
Judah will have an EUA (evaluation under anesthesia) on Monday morning at the early hour of 6 a.m. Please pray he will remain healthy for this procedure and that there will not be any significant signs of glaucoma which would require surgery. Thanks so much!
I rushed home to nurse Bella and then headed out again with the boys to pick up the prescriptions at Target, leaving Bella with my mother-in-law. That evening, we had another appointment with our pediatrician. It was Bella's 2 month check up, and Judah needed a pre-op. physical in order to go under anesthesia on Monday.
Bella is doing very well with her growth despite her breathing and reflux issues. She is in the 95th percentile for both height and weight!! This was so reassuring to me, and I give thanks for God sustaining and growing her. She also received her first round of immunizations which I never find easy to put my children through. But, I know it's for their best and for the good of others, so we do it. Today, however, she is having diarrhea. It could be a reaction to the shots, but I'm guessing that she, just like everyone else in our family but me so far, has fallen prey to this awful stomach virus. Please pray she'll be spared of the vomiting and high fever part of this virus and that she'll eat sufficiently to stay hydrated and out of the hospital.
While all the members of my family have been sick with the stomach virus, it's only been one at a time which has made it manageable. Thank you, Lord! I'm praying that if I do get it (and pray that I don't, please) that I'll get it on a weekend so that Lawrence can be home to care for the kids.
Judah will have an EUA (evaluation under anesthesia) on Monday morning at the early hour of 6 a.m. Please pray he will remain healthy for this procedure and that there will not be any significant signs of glaucoma which would require surgery. Thanks so much!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Summer Meal Ideas
It seems at some point, everyone has a post like this. So, now it's my turn. I'm posting to ask for summer meal ideas. I would like to come up with a list of 20-30 meal ideas to rotate throughout the spring/summer seasons. To be considered a summer meal, it has to be cooked on the stovetop, in the microwave, slow cooker or on the grill...no oven made meals. If you have the time to spare, please post your favorite summer meal in my comment box or on your own blog and let me know it's there. After a week, I'll post my favorite summer meal for ya'll to enjoy.
Monday, April 09, 2007
My Little Trooper
We didn't make it to church yesterday but celebrated at home with our resurrection eggs and lunch with Lawrence's family. Judah did end up getting a little touch of the stomach bug, but never threw up and never really appeared too sick, just a little diarrhea. So, we stayed home hoping to minimize the spread of this awful virus.
Today, I had to take Judah back to the dentist as she was unable to examine him upon our most recent visit. He was an amazing little man, sitting perfectly still while Dr. Diana examined his mouth. She pinched his cheeks, pressed on his gums and scraped some of his front teeth that had some superficial staining on them. He sat still the entire time, chatting her ear off. They wear grape flavored examining gloves. Judah must have tasted them because at one point, he exclaimed, "Tasty!" as she felt inside his mouth. After so many tortorous dr's appointments, it's so refreshing to have my little man cooperate and not be afraid. Thank you, Lord!
This week, I'll take Bella back to the pulmonologist for a follow up. She also has her 2 month check up where I imagine she'll begin to get her immunizations. :( Judah will also be going in to our pediatrician for a pre-op. physical as he will have an EUA (evaluation under anasthesia) next Monday for which a physical is required.
Today, I had to take Judah back to the dentist as she was unable to examine him upon our most recent visit. He was an amazing little man, sitting perfectly still while Dr. Diana examined his mouth. She pinched his cheeks, pressed on his gums and scraped some of his front teeth that had some superficial staining on them. He sat still the entire time, chatting her ear off. They wear grape flavored examining gloves. Judah must have tasted them because at one point, he exclaimed, "Tasty!" as she felt inside his mouth. After so many tortorous dr's appointments, it's so refreshing to have my little man cooperate and not be afraid. Thank you, Lord!
This week, I'll take Bella back to the pulmonologist for a follow up. She also has her 2 month check up where I imagine she'll begin to get her immunizations. :( Judah will also be going in to our pediatrician for a pre-op. physical as he will have an EUA (evaluation under anasthesia) next Monday for which a physical is required.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Passed Over...or so we thought!
For months, a nasty stomach virus has been making its way through the homes of many of the friends around us while we've gone untouched...until last night! Tucker threw up twice which wasn't all that bad compared to some of the stories I've heard from others. I don't know that he's in the clear yet as he's complaining that his belly hurts this morning and did not want to eat breakfast. So, I have the little buddy watching videos, carrying a Glad container around with him which he has since learned he needs to aim for if he thinks he's going to "spit out" (as he calls it).
The rest of us are waiting and praying that the "angel of stomach virus" will pass over us if he sees our doorposts sprinkled with bleach. (Forgive me if that's sacreligious; it's just my husband's sense of humor.)
We had a laser treatment scheduled for Judah for tomorrow, but I have cancelled that given the circumstances and potential for him or me to get it. I was really wanting to get him back into a consistent schedule with the treatments as I think they make a big difference when we're able to take him regularly. I am having to trust God's wisdom and timing is best even though I would choose otherwise. I have only to consider the cross, considered foolishness to those who are perishing but to those of us who are being saved, the power of God (I Corinthians 1:18). Here is the very truth we are seeking to celebrate this very weekend (which we will most likely be doing from home this year).
Obviously, we'd appreciate your prayers for our family. It would be great if Tucker was the only one who ends up getting it, but I'm not counting on that. My greatest concern is for the baby. Please pray Bella remains healthy.
We have several doctor's appointments coming up in the next two-three weeks for Judah and Bella. Please pray they are healthy enough to make these appointments (seems funny to ask for health to go to the doctor) :) It can be difficult to re-schedule for some of the specialists we need to see.
Thanks so much for your prayers. Have a great weekend celebrating our Savior's death and resurrection!!
The rest of us are waiting and praying that the "angel of stomach virus" will pass over us if he sees our doorposts sprinkled with bleach. (Forgive me if that's sacreligious; it's just my husband's sense of humor.)
We had a laser treatment scheduled for Judah for tomorrow, but I have cancelled that given the circumstances and potential for him or me to get it. I was really wanting to get him back into a consistent schedule with the treatments as I think they make a big difference when we're able to take him regularly. I am having to trust God's wisdom and timing is best even though I would choose otherwise. I have only to consider the cross, considered foolishness to those who are perishing but to those of us who are being saved, the power of God (I Corinthians 1:18). Here is the very truth we are seeking to celebrate this very weekend (which we will most likely be doing from home this year).
Obviously, we'd appreciate your prayers for our family. It would be great if Tucker was the only one who ends up getting it, but I'm not counting on that. My greatest concern is for the baby. Please pray Bella remains healthy.
We have several doctor's appointments coming up in the next two-three weeks for Judah and Bella. Please pray they are healthy enough to make these appointments (seems funny to ask for health to go to the doctor) :) It can be difficult to re-schedule for some of the specialists we need to see.
Thanks so much for your prayers. Have a great weekend celebrating our Savior's death and resurrection!!
Monday, March 19, 2007
Sustaining Grace
Here's a quote I've heard many times and have written down on a little piece of paper, occasionally placing it on my counter or kitchen cabinets to remind me just what sustaining grace is and looks like in the midst of trying circumstances. Perhaps it will encourage your heart today, too.
"Sustaining Grace:
Not grace to bar what is not bliss
Nor banish all sorrow, but this:
Grace that orders all our pain
Then in the dark is there to sustain."
John Piper
Many times I wish God's grace would bar what is not bliss and banish all my sorrow, but I am grateful that while this is not true, He does provide the reassurance that all our pain is ordained by His loving Hand and will not remain any longer than He, in His perfect wisdom, determines is best. Admittedly, I have faltered in my faith and trust of God's loving hand in the past week. I have grown weary and at times, dropped my shield of faith and the flaming arrows of the Enemy have pierced my faint heart. Nevertheless, God remains faithful and is amazingly patient with me, consistently providing aid and restoring me when I have fallen. Thank you, Lord.
Bella has improved somewhat with her reflux, but not to the place that I would prefer. Feeding can still be a bit of a challenge with her gagging and arching and still just not eating as much as I think she should be eating. But, after borrowing a friend's baby scale, I saw that Bella seems to be gaining the weight she should be at this stage of her life. So, I'm giving thanks and trying not to worry too much about how little I think she eats.
This week I am taking the boys to their dentist appointment with the help of my Mother-in-law. I have not yet figured out, nor want to try to figure it out at this point, how to handle three children under three at a doctor's appointment. So, I'm grateful my mother-in-law is available to help. I am concerned about Judah's teeth. There is some staining on his teeth that I'm unsure what it is or why it's there. Tucker has no staining and the two of them are on the same medicines, eat the same food, keep the same dental hygeine. So, I'm eager to hear what the dentist has to say about this. Also, the dentist will be assessing again any potential drastic discrepancy in Judah's jaw bone growth as the one side of his face swells up and seems to grow at a faster rate than the other.
Please pray that:
"Sustaining Grace:
Not grace to bar what is not bliss
Nor banish all sorrow, but this:
Grace that orders all our pain
Then in the dark is there to sustain."
John Piper
Many times I wish God's grace would bar what is not bliss and banish all my sorrow, but I am grateful that while this is not true, He does provide the reassurance that all our pain is ordained by His loving Hand and will not remain any longer than He, in His perfect wisdom, determines is best. Admittedly, I have faltered in my faith and trust of God's loving hand in the past week. I have grown weary and at times, dropped my shield of faith and the flaming arrows of the Enemy have pierced my faint heart. Nevertheless, God remains faithful and is amazingly patient with me, consistently providing aid and restoring me when I have fallen. Thank you, Lord.
Bella has improved somewhat with her reflux, but not to the place that I would prefer. Feeding can still be a bit of a challenge with her gagging and arching and still just not eating as much as I think she should be eating. But, after borrowing a friend's baby scale, I saw that Bella seems to be gaining the weight she should be at this stage of her life. So, I'm giving thanks and trying not to worry too much about how little I think she eats.
This week I am taking the boys to their dentist appointment with the help of my Mother-in-law. I have not yet figured out, nor want to try to figure it out at this point, how to handle three children under three at a doctor's appointment. So, I'm grateful my mother-in-law is available to help. I am concerned about Judah's teeth. There is some staining on his teeth that I'm unsure what it is or why it's there. Tucker has no staining and the two of them are on the same medicines, eat the same food, keep the same dental hygeine. So, I'm eager to hear what the dentist has to say about this. Also, the dentist will be assessing again any potential drastic discrepancy in Judah's jaw bone growth as the one side of his face swells up and seems to grow at a faster rate than the other.
Please pray that:
- Judah's teeth staining will be a non-issue, and we'll be able to simply get them scraped or something like that to remove the stains.
- Judah's right jaw bone will not have grown disproportionately to his left.
- Bella's reflux will improve even more on her prescribed medicines and that she will begin to eat better.
- God would help me guard my heart against unbelief in His goodness
- Our family would know God's sustaining grace in an experiential way as we continue to make this transition to having three kiddos.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
God's Many Mercies
Bella had some tests done at the Univ. of MD hospital yesterday: a sleep study and an Upper GI/Airway Fluoroscopy. The sleep study entailed many electrodes, 2 belts hooked around her chest and abdomen, and gauze wrapped around her head. We nursed (or tried to) while hooked up to all that, and she was supposed to sleep and be awake for a little bit, too. She did all of this for the technicians, and they were able to make some definitive observations.
Mostly what came of that was a clear indication that Bella has some really bad acid reflux. The two women who administered the test said that it was some of the most significant demonstrations of reflux they had ever seen: lots of arching, gulping, gagging, and very irritable. Even as an "experienced" mom, I did not necessarily see all the signs pointing to reflux. I was noting over the last couple days that she wasn't eating as consistently or very much at a feeding, but I never thought it could be a result of the pain and discomfort she was experiencing from reflux. It didn't occur to me because the way reflux showed up in the boys was through lots of spit up, vomiting, etc. Bella wasn't really spitting up all that much.
Because Bella's reflux is so bad, she was put on another reflux medicine to work in conjunction with the Zantac she's already taking. The doctor told me to watch for signs of dehydration over the next day or several days in case she decides to stop eating because she's in so much pain, and the new medicines may take a couple days to have an impact on her. Last night's feeding was very difficult; it took over an hour to get a 4 oz. bottle down her, and that while gagging, gulping, arching, and just generally not interested in eating. Lawrence and I prayed (several times), and the subsequent feedings have gone much better. I wondered if a bottle might be easier for her to take rather than dealing with my fast let down, but she's actually done better with me *reastfeeding her.
Even with this additional challenge, we have experienced much of God's mercy in the last 24 hours:
Mostly what came of that was a clear indication that Bella has some really bad acid reflux. The two women who administered the test said that it was some of the most significant demonstrations of reflux they had ever seen: lots of arching, gulping, gagging, and very irritable. Even as an "experienced" mom, I did not necessarily see all the signs pointing to reflux. I was noting over the last couple days that she wasn't eating as consistently or very much at a feeding, but I never thought it could be a result of the pain and discomfort she was experiencing from reflux. It didn't occur to me because the way reflux showed up in the boys was through lots of spit up, vomiting, etc. Bella wasn't really spitting up all that much.
Because Bella's reflux is so bad, she was put on another reflux medicine to work in conjunction with the Zantac she's already taking. The doctor told me to watch for signs of dehydration over the next day or several days in case she decides to stop eating because she's in so much pain, and the new medicines may take a couple days to have an impact on her. Last night's feeding was very difficult; it took over an hour to get a 4 oz. bottle down her, and that while gagging, gulping, arching, and just generally not interested in eating. Lawrence and I prayed (several times), and the subsequent feedings have gone much better. I wondered if a bottle might be easier for her to take rather than dealing with my fast let down, but she's actually done better with me *reastfeeding her.
Even with this additional challenge, we have experienced much of God's mercy in the last 24 hours:
- Bella did relatively well with the testing yesterday.
- She does not have a rare defect called a vascular ring, something they were looking for in their testing yesterday that would have required surgery.
- She does have both tracheomalacia and laryngomalacia (if you want to know the difference between the two, let me know and I'll gladly share)...both defects within her airway that she will, God willing, grow out of. Despite the "double whammy", she is protecting her airway sufficiently and her oxygen levels are fine per the testing yesterday. This in itself is an amazing display to me of Ps. 139:14 and God's power to sustain.
- The Pharmacist was able to make the medicine Bella needed as it comes in tablet form and at an adult dose. Upon first calling in the prescription, the pharmacist was unsure whether or not she'd be able to get it made for us last night. She was, and we see God's mercy in this.
- Bella began to nurse better this morning and is having wet diapers again. Thank you, Lord!
Please continue to pray for us as Lawrence's work is piled high which means long days for both of us, Judah started with a cold last night and was up ??? times (I lost count) throughout the night, and Bella needs to keep eating well. Please pray her reflux will be well managed with the medicines she's on and that her yeast infection in her mouth will go away. Please pray that God will continue to show us His many mercies and keep us from falling prey to anxiety and mistrust of His goodness.
Thanks so much.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Not What We Expected
We took Bella to the pulmonologist today who is the same doctor the boys saw when they were babies. I expected that, given our history with the boys, the doctor would comfortably be able to diagnose Bella with the same thing, perhaps have to do the Barium swallow, perhaps not, give Bella a couple months and trust that she'd grow out of the tracheomalacia. It seemed the doctor was leaning that way at the beginning of the appointment, even giving us a couple months before we had to schedule the barium swallow.
However, as the appointment went on and the doctor continued to hear Bella breathe, counted her breaths, and noted some other observations we've made at home, Dr. Blaisedell felt it would be a good idea to have Bella undergo a sleep study as well as the barium swallow a.s.a.p. In fact, once we agreed to this course of action, she hopped on the phone and made arrangements for Bella to have these things done at the University of MD hospital on Monday!
And, as a "no charge" assessment, the doctor also noted that Bella looked like she had a yeast infection in her mouth. So, on the way home, I called the pediatrician and was able to get presciptions called in for both Bella and me to try to take care of the yeast. I had a chronic yeast infection while breastfeeding the boys, a chronic yeast infection while pregnant with Bella, both times it being very resistant to treatment. So, I am tempted to be anxious about this, but am seeking to continually cast my cares on the Lord, knowing that He cares for me and for Bella.
Lawrence and I are feeling a little "hammered" right now. Circumstances are ripe for mistrusting God's goodness, tension between Lawrence and me, short tempers and inconsistent discipline with the boys, self absorption, self pity, grumbling, and the list could go on. But, as I read from Morning and Evening today, "good people must never expect to escape troubles...".
I also read this in that same devotional and am seeking to find hope and comfort in its truth:
"It is ordained of old that the cross of trouble should be engraved on every vessel of mercy, as the royal mark whereby the King's vessels of honor are distinguished. But although hardship is thus the path of God's children, they have the comfort of knowing that their Master has traversed it before them; they have His presence and sympathy to cheer them, His grace to support them, and His example to teach them how to endure; and when they reach "the kingdom", it will more than make amends for the "many hardships" through which they passed to enter it."
Please pray that:
However, as the appointment went on and the doctor continued to hear Bella breathe, counted her breaths, and noted some other observations we've made at home, Dr. Blaisedell felt it would be a good idea to have Bella undergo a sleep study as well as the barium swallow a.s.a.p. In fact, once we agreed to this course of action, she hopped on the phone and made arrangements for Bella to have these things done at the University of MD hospital on Monday!
And, as a "no charge" assessment, the doctor also noted that Bella looked like she had a yeast infection in her mouth. So, on the way home, I called the pediatrician and was able to get presciptions called in for both Bella and me to try to take care of the yeast. I had a chronic yeast infection while breastfeeding the boys, a chronic yeast infection while pregnant with Bella, both times it being very resistant to treatment. So, I am tempted to be anxious about this, but am seeking to continually cast my cares on the Lord, knowing that He cares for me and for Bella.
Lawrence and I are feeling a little "hammered" right now. Circumstances are ripe for mistrusting God's goodness, tension between Lawrence and me, short tempers and inconsistent discipline with the boys, self absorption, self pity, grumbling, and the list could go on. But, as I read from Morning and Evening today, "good people must never expect to escape troubles...".
I also read this in that same devotional and am seeking to find hope and comfort in its truth:
"It is ordained of old that the cross of trouble should be engraved on every vessel of mercy, as the royal mark whereby the King's vessels of honor are distinguished. But although hardship is thus the path of God's children, they have the comfort of knowing that their Master has traversed it before them; they have His presence and sympathy to cheer them, His grace to support them, and His example to teach them how to endure; and when they reach "the kingdom", it will more than make amends for the "many hardships" through which they passed to enter it."
Please pray that:
- God will continue to strengthen me in my physical body, enabling me to carry out my responsibilities as a wife and mother.
- God would continue to protect our family from the illnesses that are currently "going around", colds/sinus infections and the dreaded stomach virus.
- God would provide all that's need for Bella to undergo the tests on Monday: a sitter for the boys, company for me at the hospital, a cooperative baby for the testing, and stamina for me to keep up with the pace.
Thanks.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Cute Things
Nursing a newborn infront of toddler boys is bound to provide some comic relief, and it has. So, I'm passing onto you some of the cute interpretations my boys have had regarding nursing and all things related.
Judah picked up my nursing pad and tried to put it on Bella's head, calling it her "hat".
Tucker looked at me nursing Bella and said, "Bella's eating an orange". :)
They both refer to my *reasts (spelled like that for spamming purposes) as my belly. Not sure whether to correct them on that and if I do, what do I tell them?!
Monday, March 05, 2007
The Week Behind and Ahead
Well, I made it an entire week on my own, sort of. I did have some friends pick up groceries for me, one who came a morning to watch the boys while Bella and I went to Target, and meals were provided for us all week, too. Other than that, I was here at home with three kids under three. And, we all survived to tell about it. :)
Good news: I can put off Bella's hearing test until I'm through some of the more urgent dr's appointments (per our pediatrician's office), and they gave us their recommendation for another hearing assessment place so that I won't have to go back to the first place we tried. Thank you, Lord. Have I said how much I love our pediatrician's office?
Bella seems to be doing well; although she drives me to my knees often. She is still taking the Zantac well and seems to be eating well, sleeping well, etc. But, she's had eye crusties/boogies for the last week or so which her ped. thought might just be a blocked tear duct. I'd be satisfied with that assessment, too, except that the boys have both had a little bit of the same thing, and Bella has had some nose boogies in the last couple days as well. I don't want to make too much of it unnecessarily, but can't remember the boys having boogies this young. I haven't yet called the pediatrician; I'm trying to give it time to see if it goes away on its own. And, I'm praying if it is any kind of virus/cold, that it will stay up in her head and not slide down into her chest where it really could cause her some serious trouble. Would you please pray with me that it would all clear up in the next day or so?
We will take Bella to see a pulmonologist this Thursday at 3:30. Dr. Blaisedell saw the boys in their first year and so, we have some history with her. We're confident she'll do what's best for Bella, but want to be sure to make helpful and accurate observations here at home in order to help Dr. Blaisedell make the most informed decisions re: Bella's care. Would you please pray that God will make me and Lawrence observe what we need to with Bella?
I am daily gaining strength and trying to add in more of my usual responsibilities. I seem to be able to keep up (sort of) with our laundry and dishes, but am still running out of energy quickly when we try to go out or have company in for more than a couple hours at a time. I'm prayerful every day that God would help me to be humble about my limitations but discerning about what I can and should be trying to do again to serve my family and our home.
I am going to try to post again either today or soon with some cute things the boys have said/done regarding Bella along with some pictures of the girlie! Stay tuned. :)
Good news: I can put off Bella's hearing test until I'm through some of the more urgent dr's appointments (per our pediatrician's office), and they gave us their recommendation for another hearing assessment place so that I won't have to go back to the first place we tried. Thank you, Lord. Have I said how much I love our pediatrician's office?
Bella seems to be doing well; although she drives me to my knees often. She is still taking the Zantac well and seems to be eating well, sleeping well, etc. But, she's had eye crusties/boogies for the last week or so which her ped. thought might just be a blocked tear duct. I'd be satisfied with that assessment, too, except that the boys have both had a little bit of the same thing, and Bella has had some nose boogies in the last couple days as well. I don't want to make too much of it unnecessarily, but can't remember the boys having boogies this young. I haven't yet called the pediatrician; I'm trying to give it time to see if it goes away on its own. And, I'm praying if it is any kind of virus/cold, that it will stay up in her head and not slide down into her chest where it really could cause her some serious trouble. Would you please pray with me that it would all clear up in the next day or so?
We will take Bella to see a pulmonologist this Thursday at 3:30. Dr. Blaisedell saw the boys in their first year and so, we have some history with her. We're confident she'll do what's best for Bella, but want to be sure to make helpful and accurate observations here at home in order to help Dr. Blaisedell make the most informed decisions re: Bella's care. Would you please pray that God will make me and Lawrence observe what we need to with Bella?
I am daily gaining strength and trying to add in more of my usual responsibilities. I seem to be able to keep up (sort of) with our laundry and dishes, but am still running out of energy quickly when we try to go out or have company in for more than a couple hours at a time. I'm prayerful every day that God would help me to be humble about my limitations but discerning about what I can and should be trying to do again to serve my family and our home.
I am going to try to post again either today or soon with some cute things the boys have said/done regarding Bella along with some pictures of the girlie! Stay tuned. :)
Monday, February 26, 2007
Our Monday
I wanted to provide a little update on Bella. Her breathing continues to be faster than is normal, but she seems to be fine with that. She sleeps well, eats well, poops, etc...all the things a newborn is supposed to do. And, she's so stinkin' beautiful while doing it all, except maybe the pooping part. :)
Our pediatrician called today after consulting with the pulminologist who wants Bella to have a Barrium (sp?) swallow. The boys both had this test done, and it is not fun at all. There is a pediatric radiologist in Harford County who hopefully is comfortable and experienced doing this test on such a little baby. If not, we'll have to go to the city, to the Univ. of MD hospital in order to have it done. This test, apparently will show things that the other tests Bella's had done did not show. What they're looking for exactly, I don't know. But, the pulminologist expressed to our pediatrician that she doesn't want to put Bella through anything more invasive than necessary. Since we've dealt with this specialist before, I feel pretty comfortable with her recommendations even though it is exhausting me mentally just thinking about all the dr.'s appointments coming up.
Today, I had to take Bella for her hearing assessment since it wasn't given to her while she was in the hospital. We ended up waiting for 45 minutes only to be seen and told after another 40 minutes that the testing instruments they had in their office were not going to work on Bella. The first testing instrument the Dr. used requires the baby to be quiet. When you meet Bella, you will realize it's impossible for her to be quiet as her tracheomalacia causes her to have rather noisy breathing. The second instrument the Dr. tried to use on Bella was picking up to much 'static' (my own word, not the technical word) to get a reading. The one instrument that may work for Bella was not in the office today. So, we were given the choice to come back another day when that would be available. I am not terribly thrilled about having to make another appointment, and may try to find a way to put this assessment off as long as I can.
We are not scheduled for another dr's appointment this week, but may end up having to squeeze one in if the Barrium swallow is something that needs to be done promptly. Bella continues to take her Zantac well, and I give thanks each time remembering how awful it was with the boys.
I am still trying to recover from delivery, but feel better with each day as long as I pace myself and try not to do too much. With that, I'm heading off to bed.
Our pediatrician called today after consulting with the pulminologist who wants Bella to have a Barrium (sp?) swallow. The boys both had this test done, and it is not fun at all. There is a pediatric radiologist in Harford County who hopefully is comfortable and experienced doing this test on such a little baby. If not, we'll have to go to the city, to the Univ. of MD hospital in order to have it done. This test, apparently will show things that the other tests Bella's had done did not show. What they're looking for exactly, I don't know. But, the pulminologist expressed to our pediatrician that she doesn't want to put Bella through anything more invasive than necessary. Since we've dealt with this specialist before, I feel pretty comfortable with her recommendations even though it is exhausting me mentally just thinking about all the dr.'s appointments coming up.
Today, I had to take Bella for her hearing assessment since it wasn't given to her while she was in the hospital. We ended up waiting for 45 minutes only to be seen and told after another 40 minutes that the testing instruments they had in their office were not going to work on Bella. The first testing instrument the Dr. used requires the baby to be quiet. When you meet Bella, you will realize it's impossible for her to be quiet as her tracheomalacia causes her to have rather noisy breathing. The second instrument the Dr. tried to use on Bella was picking up to much 'static' (my own word, not the technical word) to get a reading. The one instrument that may work for Bella was not in the office today. So, we were given the choice to come back another day when that would be available. I am not terribly thrilled about having to make another appointment, and may try to find a way to put this assessment off as long as I can.
We are not scheduled for another dr's appointment this week, but may end up having to squeeze one in if the Barrium swallow is something that needs to be done promptly. Bella continues to take her Zantac well, and I give thanks each time remembering how awful it was with the boys.
I am still trying to recover from delivery, but feel better with each day as long as I pace myself and try not to do too much. With that, I'm heading off to bed.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Our Pets' Heads Are Falling Off
No, we do not have pets, and their heads are not falling off.
This is a phrase we have adopted into our language here at home from the movie, "Dumb and Dumber". We say it when it seems one unpreferable thing happens after another. It can be as silly as getting behind a slow car when we're already running late and we've forgotten something we needed at home. Or, it can be as serious as what we're going through now. My husband is always the one who says it, and typically it can put a smile on my face.
Today was one of those days. It started last night. I began to grow increasingly concerned with the rate of Bella's respirations. We counted, waited, counted again, burped her, fed her, counted again, let her sleep, counted, and finally called the pediatrician. We belabored the decision to call because in the past with the boys, typically those calls also accompany a trip the ER in the middle of the night. And, of course, we did not want to unecessarily take our baby girl,who we just got home days ago, back to the hospital.
Thankfully, we did not have to go to the ER, but her respirations remained rapid into this morning. We called our pediatrician again who happened to be having Saturday hours. We were surprised and gave thanks to God for this provision, making a trip to the hospital much less likely. I took Bella in to see the head of the practice we go to, and he took our observations very seriously. He spent a lot of time with us and was very patient, having to wait so that I could nurse Bella (she wouldn't take a bottle) and change her diaper so that she would calm down enough for him to get a good listen of her lungs.
He said her lungs sounded good. Thank you, Lord! But, he was nevertheless concerned about her respiration rate. He suspects she may be what he refers to as a "closet refluxer" since I haven't noticed the typical signs of reflux yet. He put her on Zantac and said that if she didn't improve by early next week, we would need to see the Pulmonologist a.s.a.p. He told me to watch for signs of infection as well: fever, not eating well, goobly gop coming out of her nose or throat, etc. If it turns out to be a cold or something along those lines, he said she'd have to be hospitalized again.
So, I left with prescription in hand, very overwhelmed by this turn of events. We had been down this road with the boys, and they did not do well with the Zantac at all. It's a medicine the baby is to receive a half hour before she eats. I remember this being a difficult way to administer with the boys as they would want to eat as soon as they woke up from their sleep. I could never let the medicine sit in their system for a half hour, let alone 10 minutes because they were so eager to eat. So, I'd feed them and they'd throw everything up. I feared going through the same routine with Bella.
And, admittedly I was faithless for how I would make time to give Bella this medicine three times a day, have her wait to eat and then, potentially be cleaning up throw up to boot. I was pretty discouraged as I headed to the Pharmacy. And, I remained so for most of the afternoon.
I got home with Bella just in time for Lawrence to head off to the office to put in some much needed time there and was left having to get the boys down for a nap and give Bella her first dose of the Zantac.
She did much better than I expected with the Zantac and even went back to sleep for a half hour! She nursed and did well. Her breathing seemed to be improved today, but tonight is up again. She took her 2nd dose of Zantac well, too, and I am grateful that it seems it will work for her.
Lawrence and I will be waiting and watching over the next couple days. Our pediatrician called tonight to see how she was doing and will check in with us again tomorrow. He even gave us his cell phone number so that we could get right in touch with him should anything change with her status. We see this as God's kindness to us and are grateful our baby is receiving such good care!
Please pray that Bella will continue to take the Zantac well, and that it will help improve her respirations to a more normal pace. Please pray that we will continue to be anxious for nothing. With sleep deprivation, this is becoming increasingly more difficult. Please pray that God will renew our strength with each day and throughout our days. They feel long and hard right now, but we have seen God be faithful to us through times like this time and time again.
We know that each morning brings new mercies. And, we know that we can approach the throne of grace to find mercy and help in our time of need. We know God will provide for our every need according to His riches in Christ. We do believe these things; we're just really tired and face the temptation to grow weary rather easily in the last couple days.
Thanks for your continued prayers. We will be sure to let you know how things go for Bella over the next couple days.
This is a phrase we have adopted into our language here at home from the movie, "Dumb and Dumber". We say it when it seems one unpreferable thing happens after another. It can be as silly as getting behind a slow car when we're already running late and we've forgotten something we needed at home. Or, it can be as serious as what we're going through now. My husband is always the one who says it, and typically it can put a smile on my face.
Today was one of those days. It started last night. I began to grow increasingly concerned with the rate of Bella's respirations. We counted, waited, counted again, burped her, fed her, counted again, let her sleep, counted, and finally called the pediatrician. We belabored the decision to call because in the past with the boys, typically those calls also accompany a trip the ER in the middle of the night. And, of course, we did not want to unecessarily take our baby girl,who we just got home days ago, back to the hospital.
Thankfully, we did not have to go to the ER, but her respirations remained rapid into this morning. We called our pediatrician again who happened to be having Saturday hours. We were surprised and gave thanks to God for this provision, making a trip to the hospital much less likely. I took Bella in to see the head of the practice we go to, and he took our observations very seriously. He spent a lot of time with us and was very patient, having to wait so that I could nurse Bella (she wouldn't take a bottle) and change her diaper so that she would calm down enough for him to get a good listen of her lungs.
He said her lungs sounded good. Thank you, Lord! But, he was nevertheless concerned about her respiration rate. He suspects she may be what he refers to as a "closet refluxer" since I haven't noticed the typical signs of reflux yet. He put her on Zantac and said that if she didn't improve by early next week, we would need to see the Pulmonologist a.s.a.p. He told me to watch for signs of infection as well: fever, not eating well, goobly gop coming out of her nose or throat, etc. If it turns out to be a cold or something along those lines, he said she'd have to be hospitalized again.
So, I left with prescription in hand, very overwhelmed by this turn of events. We had been down this road with the boys, and they did not do well with the Zantac at all. It's a medicine the baby is to receive a half hour before she eats. I remember this being a difficult way to administer with the boys as they would want to eat as soon as they woke up from their sleep. I could never let the medicine sit in their system for a half hour, let alone 10 minutes because they were so eager to eat. So, I'd feed them and they'd throw everything up. I feared going through the same routine with Bella.
And, admittedly I was faithless for how I would make time to give Bella this medicine three times a day, have her wait to eat and then, potentially be cleaning up throw up to boot. I was pretty discouraged as I headed to the Pharmacy. And, I remained so for most of the afternoon.
I got home with Bella just in time for Lawrence to head off to the office to put in some much needed time there and was left having to get the boys down for a nap and give Bella her first dose of the Zantac.
She did much better than I expected with the Zantac and even went back to sleep for a half hour! She nursed and did well. Her breathing seemed to be improved today, but tonight is up again. She took her 2nd dose of Zantac well, too, and I am grateful that it seems it will work for her.
Lawrence and I will be waiting and watching over the next couple days. Our pediatrician called tonight to see how she was doing and will check in with us again tomorrow. He even gave us his cell phone number so that we could get right in touch with him should anything change with her status. We see this as God's kindness to us and are grateful our baby is receiving such good care!
Please pray that Bella will continue to take the Zantac well, and that it will help improve her respirations to a more normal pace. Please pray that we will continue to be anxious for nothing. With sleep deprivation, this is becoming increasingly more difficult. Please pray that God will renew our strength with each day and throughout our days. They feel long and hard right now, but we have seen God be faithful to us through times like this time and time again.
We know that each morning brings new mercies. And, we know that we can approach the throne of grace to find mercy and help in our time of need. We know God will provide for our every need according to His riches in Christ. We do believe these things; we're just really tired and face the temptation to grow weary rather easily in the last couple days.
Thanks for your continued prayers. We will be sure to let you know how things go for Bella over the next couple days.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Our First Outing
I did it...but barely and with help.
I ventured out of the house with all three of the kiddos. Granted, it was only to the pediatrician, and it was necessary for me to take all three of them with me, but I did it. My mom was here to help, and good thing because I'm sure at 9 p.m. tonight (as I am writing this), I would still be trying to get out of the house. I will take any advice from any of you who have or had three or more under three on how to get them all out of the house on time for appointments.
We met our new pediatrician today, Dr. Hartwig. She interacted great with the boys. They loved being able to touch all her instruments. Everything seems to be going well with Bella. She's back up to her birth weight minus an ounce, which I think is rather impressive given she didn't eat the first four days of her life! She hasn't shown any signs of reflux yet which is such a blessing. She seems fine in every other regard and is proving to be quite a good baby. She and I are on track with the nursing (thank you, Lord); I feel more regulated with my supply than I ever got in the six months I nursed the boys. I have to guard my heart and watch my thoughts as I can be tempted to wonder when everything is going to start going poorly, as it did with the boys. Instead, I want to be able to receive this blessing from the Lord and not have expectations or demands for tomorrow.
Judah was also examined today for his growth. He jumped up on his weight curve but sank on his height curve, the opposite from just a month ago. Because we're dealing with a new pediatrician who is unfamiliar both with Judah's personal history and with Sturge Weber Syndrome, this may take some time for her to figure out how she wants to advise us. For now, she will contact Judah's neurologist to consult with her about what might be called for as far as follow up with this growth issue.
We'd appreciate your continued prayers for Judah's growth. The pediatrician didn't feel it was an urgent matter that needed immediate attention, and I'm grateful for that. From the last two weeks in March until the end of April, we will be averaging 1-2 dr's appointments a week.
Thank you for your ongoing prayers for our family. It is a time of transition for sure, and we feel the stress of our season daily. Lawrence is beginning to get what we have learned is a "stress" cold; we are both tired and feel stretched to our limits. But, we are also both aware of how much God is sustaining us, our kids and providing for all our needs. We know we are abundantly blessed with constant offers for help of all kinds.
If you have called in the last couple days and I haven't gotten your call or called you back, please know we appreciate your call, your persistance in expressing your care for us and your understanding when we don't get back to you promptly. The boys are requiring a lot of my attention in regards to discipline, and I am trying to rest as much as possible during the day, too, making phone calls difficult to get to. Soon enough, I imagine, we will figure this all out and have a bit more of a routine. But, for now, it's about daily survival.
And, to survive tomorrow, I must now go to bed. :)
I ventured out of the house with all three of the kiddos. Granted, it was only to the pediatrician, and it was necessary for me to take all three of them with me, but I did it. My mom was here to help, and good thing because I'm sure at 9 p.m. tonight (as I am writing this), I would still be trying to get out of the house. I will take any advice from any of you who have or had three or more under three on how to get them all out of the house on time for appointments.
We met our new pediatrician today, Dr. Hartwig. She interacted great with the boys. They loved being able to touch all her instruments. Everything seems to be going well with Bella. She's back up to her birth weight minus an ounce, which I think is rather impressive given she didn't eat the first four days of her life! She hasn't shown any signs of reflux yet which is such a blessing. She seems fine in every other regard and is proving to be quite a good baby. She and I are on track with the nursing (thank you, Lord); I feel more regulated with my supply than I ever got in the six months I nursed the boys. I have to guard my heart and watch my thoughts as I can be tempted to wonder when everything is going to start going poorly, as it did with the boys. Instead, I want to be able to receive this blessing from the Lord and not have expectations or demands for tomorrow.
Judah was also examined today for his growth. He jumped up on his weight curve but sank on his height curve, the opposite from just a month ago. Because we're dealing with a new pediatrician who is unfamiliar both with Judah's personal history and with Sturge Weber Syndrome, this may take some time for her to figure out how she wants to advise us. For now, she will contact Judah's neurologist to consult with her about what might be called for as far as follow up with this growth issue.
We'd appreciate your continued prayers for Judah's growth. The pediatrician didn't feel it was an urgent matter that needed immediate attention, and I'm grateful for that. From the last two weeks in March until the end of April, we will be averaging 1-2 dr's appointments a week.
Thank you for your ongoing prayers for our family. It is a time of transition for sure, and we feel the stress of our season daily. Lawrence is beginning to get what we have learned is a "stress" cold; we are both tired and feel stretched to our limits. But, we are also both aware of how much God is sustaining us, our kids and providing for all our needs. We know we are abundantly blessed with constant offers for help of all kinds.
If you have called in the last couple days and I haven't gotten your call or called you back, please know we appreciate your call, your persistance in expressing your care for us and your understanding when we don't get back to you promptly. The boys are requiring a lot of my attention in regards to discipline, and I am trying to rest as much as possible during the day, too, making phone calls difficult to get to. Soon enough, I imagine, we will figure this all out and have a bit more of a routine. But, for now, it's about daily survival.
And, to survive tomorrow, I must now go to bed. :)
Monday, February 19, 2007
Bella is Home!!
I'm sorry I haven't been able to give the "play by play" over the last 2 days and have left some of you hanging. Thank you to my good friend, Laurie, who has been a bit more on top of providing updates for some of you. For those of you who have not yet heard, we did bring Bella home tonight. The blood in her spit up the other night was most likely due to the trama from the bronchoscopy and other tubing threaded down her throat over the course of time she spent in the hospital. It took her a while, but she eventually began to eat sufficient amounts to satisfy the doctors, and they decided to discharge her today.
We will need to take her for some follow up visits with our pediatrician and the ENT docs just to make sure the tracheomalacia is improving as is expected with time. She is expected to have reflux, a condition that seems to go hand in hand with the tracheomalacia, but we are going to pray and ask God to spare us all of that. The boys did have it and were treated medicinally until they were about 9 months old. It does make for very messy eating, clothing and carpets, but we'll do what we have to do in order to get the girl fed.
Please pray for wisdom, patience and much grace re: breastfeeding Bella. I had a nightmare experience with the boys, and I'm hoping not to repeat that with Bella. I want to be able to throw my anxieties on the Lord and look to Him in faith that He will supply all that I need to both serve Bella and help her fit into the dynamics of our family.
With Hopkins NICU behind us, I get to now rely on the Lord for strength and grace for the more "normal" transitions to mothering a newborn, which at times can test me even more sorely than the "big" stuff. Thank you for all the prayers you've prayed on behalf of me and my family. We are most definitely experiencing God's grace through them. We will continue to need your prayers as Lawrence goes back to a very demanding work schedule and I figure out how to do life all over again with three kiddos under three.
I will try to post some new pictures of my beautiful baby girl soon!!
We will need to take her for some follow up visits with our pediatrician and the ENT docs just to make sure the tracheomalacia is improving as is expected with time. She is expected to have reflux, a condition that seems to go hand in hand with the tracheomalacia, but we are going to pray and ask God to spare us all of that. The boys did have it and were treated medicinally until they were about 9 months old. It does make for very messy eating, clothing and carpets, but we'll do what we have to do in order to get the girl fed.
Please pray for wisdom, patience and much grace re: breastfeeding Bella. I had a nightmare experience with the boys, and I'm hoping not to repeat that with Bella. I want to be able to throw my anxieties on the Lord and look to Him in faith that He will supply all that I need to both serve Bella and help her fit into the dynamics of our family.
With Hopkins NICU behind us, I get to now rely on the Lord for strength and grace for the more "normal" transitions to mothering a newborn, which at times can test me even more sorely than the "big" stuff. Thank you for all the prayers you've prayed on behalf of me and my family. We are most definitely experiencing God's grace through them. We will continue to need your prayers as Lawrence goes back to a very demanding work schedule and I figure out how to do life all over again with three kiddos under three.
I will try to post some new pictures of my beautiful baby girl soon!!
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Emotional Roller Coaster
I was all over the map emotionally today as was Bella's condition.
We made it into the hospital today around 2, walked into the NICU to see Bella laying in her bed without the CPAP and very contented. Her nurse approached us and told me I could breastfeed her whenever I was ready. We were in disbelief. In fact, I was sure the nurse had the wrong baby or the wrong parents. After questioning her, she informed us that indeed the doctor wanted Bella to try to eat on her own and that I could nurse her. I was thrilled!!
The doctor came in to see us just before I set up to nurse in order to explain the change of course. She showed us Bella's x-rays and talked with us about the bronchoscopy (endoscopy) that was performed earlier today, which was done right at her bedside without any anesthesia!!! The bronchoscopy showed that Bella does indeed have the Tracheomalatia (sp?) which is what the boys and I were all born with as well. It's a flap in one's airway that is "floppy" and can cause noisy breathing known as strider as well as eating/breathing difficulty.
There was one other very rare syndrome the doctor wanted to rule out, the spelling and explanation of which I am not even going to attempt at this late hour. The first step in doing that was to feed Bella and see how she handled the food. So, on that note, I went back into Bella to feed her. She did rather well for not having nursed thus far. Lawrence and I and her nurse were all very encouraged by what we saw.
However, later in the evening when we came back from dinner, we sat down again to feed her, this time from a bottle so that the volume could be measured. Bella had one other feeding in between this one and me nursing her but it was very little volume. Because she handled it well, though (meaning she did not choke on the food), the nurse was able to take her IV out which was supplying fluids. Lawrence and I sat down and took turns feeding her, trying to get into her the volume that was needed to show true progress. She was taking a long time, but got really close to finishing the bottle and then threw up a good bit. The spitting up was not alarming, but the blood that came with it was. It was scant, but nevertheless present and this was discouraging. After the doctor was informed, it was decided Bella would have to go back on the IV for the night and have no more feedings until they could figure out why she threw up the blood. The nurse suspects that it could be irritation in her throat from the bronchoscopy earlier today along with several other tubes that have been threaded down her throat. But, the doctor ordered an x-ray of her stomach to check if there's anything concerning there along with some more bloodwork.
SO, Lawrence and I anxiously waited outside the NICU while they stuck my poor baby again for the IV and bloodwork. It took an eternity, but they eventually found a vein that wasn't blown. When we came back in, the nurse who put the IV in mentioned something about her veins being blown from so many lines having gone in the past several days and that if she had to find another spot for an IV, she may have to shave her hair to place one in her head! NOT really the most sensitive thing to say, but we're trying to get used to the fact that some medical staff have just been in that environment way too long and have forgotten what it must be like to be on the other side of their care. (No offense to the good ones out there...because there are many good nurses and doctors, and we have been well cared for by these amazing people!)
We left tonight realizing how much we need to continue to throw ourselves upon God's mercy no matter what news we hear. We are both very tired tonight and our emotions have not always served us well today. But, we are continuing to pray and wait on the Lord, seeking to cooperate with His plan and His timing for all of us in this. Please pray for grace to persevere and flexibility as we bend with whatever twists and turns God throws our way.
We made it into the hospital today around 2, walked into the NICU to see Bella laying in her bed without the CPAP and very contented. Her nurse approached us and told me I could breastfeed her whenever I was ready. We were in disbelief. In fact, I was sure the nurse had the wrong baby or the wrong parents. After questioning her, she informed us that indeed the doctor wanted Bella to try to eat on her own and that I could nurse her. I was thrilled!!
The doctor came in to see us just before I set up to nurse in order to explain the change of course. She showed us Bella's x-rays and talked with us about the bronchoscopy (endoscopy) that was performed earlier today, which was done right at her bedside without any anesthesia!!! The bronchoscopy showed that Bella does indeed have the Tracheomalatia (sp?) which is what the boys and I were all born with as well. It's a flap in one's airway that is "floppy" and can cause noisy breathing known as strider as well as eating/breathing difficulty.
There was one other very rare syndrome the doctor wanted to rule out, the spelling and explanation of which I am not even going to attempt at this late hour. The first step in doing that was to feed Bella and see how she handled the food. So, on that note, I went back into Bella to feed her. She did rather well for not having nursed thus far. Lawrence and I and her nurse were all very encouraged by what we saw.
However, later in the evening when we came back from dinner, we sat down again to feed her, this time from a bottle so that the volume could be measured. Bella had one other feeding in between this one and me nursing her but it was very little volume. Because she handled it well, though (meaning she did not choke on the food), the nurse was able to take her IV out which was supplying fluids. Lawrence and I sat down and took turns feeding her, trying to get into her the volume that was needed to show true progress. She was taking a long time, but got really close to finishing the bottle and then threw up a good bit. The spitting up was not alarming, but the blood that came with it was. It was scant, but nevertheless present and this was discouraging. After the doctor was informed, it was decided Bella would have to go back on the IV for the night and have no more feedings until they could figure out why she threw up the blood. The nurse suspects that it could be irritation in her throat from the bronchoscopy earlier today along with several other tubes that have been threaded down her throat. But, the doctor ordered an x-ray of her stomach to check if there's anything concerning there along with some more bloodwork.
SO, Lawrence and I anxiously waited outside the NICU while they stuck my poor baby again for the IV and bloodwork. It took an eternity, but they eventually found a vein that wasn't blown. When we came back in, the nurse who put the IV in mentioned something about her veins being blown from so many lines having gone in the past several days and that if she had to find another spot for an IV, she may have to shave her hair to place one in her head! NOT really the most sensitive thing to say, but we're trying to get used to the fact that some medical staff have just been in that environment way too long and have forgotten what it must be like to be on the other side of their care. (No offense to the good ones out there...because there are many good nurses and doctors, and we have been well cared for by these amazing people!)
We left tonight realizing how much we need to continue to throw ourselves upon God's mercy no matter what news we hear. We are both very tired tonight and our emotions have not always served us well today. But, we are continuing to pray and wait on the Lord, seeking to cooperate with His plan and His timing for all of us in this. Please pray for grace to persevere and flexibility as we bend with whatever twists and turns God throws our way.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Update on Bella
Since her move to Hopkins, Bella seems to be resting a lot more comfortably, at least the two times we've been able to see her. She did need to have the CPAP (Continual Positive Air Pressure) placed again in order to keep her respirations normal, but we are just grateful that she is able to rest and not have to labor so hard to breathe.
She still has not been able to receive food nourishment via IV and is scheduled to have a bronchoscopy (a scope placed down her throat to check things out there) tomorrow sometime. The boys both had this procedure done when they were 4 1/2 months old. It was very hard to see them go through this, and it is proving to be as difficult if not moreso to think about putting my brand new baby girl through this, too.
She will be put under anasthesia and intubated for the procedure. She may come out of the procedure with a ventilator still in place if she needs it. This news hit me a bit hard tonight along with the clarification of what our expectations should be re: her stay in the NICU. After speaking with Bella's nurse tonight, she led us to believe Bella could be in the NICU for at least another week if not longer.
She still has not been able to receive food nourishment via IV and is scheduled to have a bronchoscopy (a scope placed down her throat to check things out there) tomorrow sometime. The boys both had this procedure done when they were 4 1/2 months old. It was very hard to see them go through this, and it is proving to be as difficult if not moreso to think about putting my brand new baby girl through this, too.
She will be put under anasthesia and intubated for the procedure. She may come out of the procedure with a ventilator still in place if she needs it. This news hit me a bit hard tonight along with the clarification of what our expectations should be re: her stay in the NICU. After speaking with Bella's nurse tonight, she led us to believe Bella could be in the NICU for at least another week if not longer.
If you want more of the medical side of things, let me know and I'll try to explain what I know. Otherwise, here are the ways you can be praying for our family:
- Bella will fare well with anasthesia and no complications will arise before, during or after the bronchoscopy.
- the bronchoscopy will prove helpful in diagnosing and treating Bella for her respiratory distress, taking us one step closer to bringing her home.
- continued strength for Lawrence and me to respond to all the competing demands and needs of our family right now.
- continued restoration of health for me (I am still healing from my delivery with Bella as well as trying to fight either a cold or allergies/sinus stuffiness).
- Pumping my milk for Bella will continue to go well and my supply will be regulated soon.
- the boys will continue to receive much grace to remain flexible during this time of upset in their schedule, absense of mommy and daddy and being passed around from one sitter/play buddy to another.
We have been experiencing God's grace and mercy in abundance, and God willing, I will get an opportunity soon to post some of the specific ways this has been true. Your prayers are in no small measure playing a major role in the way Lawrence and I and the boys have been able to respond to this trial in a way that glorifies God. Thank you so much and please keep praying!
Thursday, February 15, 2007
A Longing Fulfilled
Our longing to see our baby has been fulfilled!!
SHE was born Monday, February 12 at 12:23 p.m. after a long but highly satisfying labor and delivery. Her name is Isabela Claire Almengor, and she weighed 8 lbs. 5 oz. at birth, and is 20 inches long. She has a full head of black hair and is absolutely beautiful. We can't wait to show her off.
I know this is so strange to some, but I longed for a natural/vaginal birth with Bella. I desired this for my labor/delivery with the boys as well, but God had other plans, and they were for my ultimate good. It was the Lord's kindness to allow me to have the labor and delivery that I desired this time. Not that labor is desirable really, but it was such an amazing experience that I have already and will continue to draw upon for other difficult trials and temptations life brings my way.
I saw the first signs of labor Sunday morning before church, but having been induced with the boys was uncertain whether I was really beginning the labor process or not. After confirming with a couple of the girlfriends and my mom, I was sure that the baby would most likely be arriving some time this past week. As Lawrence and I settled down for the night around 10 p.m., it quickly became obvious I would not be settling down for the night as contractions heightened, and I became a bit consumed and even anxious at times about going through labor and delivery. Around 2 a.m., we called our dear friend and labor coach, Karen Coleman, to come and help me labor at home. By 3 a.m., I was convinced I needed to go to the hospital. It was 5 a.m. by the time we arrived there.
I was convinced that I did not want to continue without the help of some pain medication, but my coach, who knows me well, kept giving me opportunities and motivation to put it off for just one more contraction. One contraction at a time took me to 10 a.m. when I was checked for the first time. I had made it to 8 cm and was thrilled to be that far. Within a half hour, I began to feel the urge to push even though I was completely dilated. My midwife and nurse were amazing, encouraging me to cooperate with what my body was telling me to do yet not push too hard as I needed a little bit more dilation yet.
I pushed for close to two hours, but it only took one push, the last one, to see Bella fully emerge into our world...head and body all at once!! She was plopped onto my belly, and I couldn't believe I had gotten her out in one push after all that time trying. As a result, however, Bella most likely swallowed some of the amniotic fluid that came behind her in that rush out of my body. Soon after delivery, it was determined by the nurses and pediatrician assessing her that she was experiencing respiratory distress. After a brief time holding her, she was whisked away to the nursery where she has been ever since.
My good friend, Laurie, offered to post some pictures and details about Bella's situation on her blog since I was having a difficult time getting to updating my blog. Please click on her name to go to her blog for further details and pictures of my beautiful baby girl.
I have been able to hold Bella only once and have not been able to nurse her at all yet. It is for her best that I not nurse her right now as that would most likely exasperate her already very difficult breathing. Lawrence and I are soon heading out to the hospital to see her and get some update on her condition. I will try to post updates on our little girl as often as I can as we are very desirious to receive your prayers on her behalf.
SHE was born Monday, February 12 at 12:23 p.m. after a long but highly satisfying labor and delivery. Her name is Isabela Claire Almengor, and she weighed 8 lbs. 5 oz. at birth, and is 20 inches long. She has a full head of black hair and is absolutely beautiful. We can't wait to show her off.
I know this is so strange to some, but I longed for a natural/vaginal birth with Bella. I desired this for my labor/delivery with the boys as well, but God had other plans, and they were for my ultimate good. It was the Lord's kindness to allow me to have the labor and delivery that I desired this time. Not that labor is desirable really, but it was such an amazing experience that I have already and will continue to draw upon for other difficult trials and temptations life brings my way.
I saw the first signs of labor Sunday morning before church, but having been induced with the boys was uncertain whether I was really beginning the labor process or not. After confirming with a couple of the girlfriends and my mom, I was sure that the baby would most likely be arriving some time this past week. As Lawrence and I settled down for the night around 10 p.m., it quickly became obvious I would not be settling down for the night as contractions heightened, and I became a bit consumed and even anxious at times about going through labor and delivery. Around 2 a.m., we called our dear friend and labor coach, Karen Coleman, to come and help me labor at home. By 3 a.m., I was convinced I needed to go to the hospital. It was 5 a.m. by the time we arrived there.
I was convinced that I did not want to continue without the help of some pain medication, but my coach, who knows me well, kept giving me opportunities and motivation to put it off for just one more contraction. One contraction at a time took me to 10 a.m. when I was checked for the first time. I had made it to 8 cm and was thrilled to be that far. Within a half hour, I began to feel the urge to push even though I was completely dilated. My midwife and nurse were amazing, encouraging me to cooperate with what my body was telling me to do yet not push too hard as I needed a little bit more dilation yet.
I pushed for close to two hours, but it only took one push, the last one, to see Bella fully emerge into our world...head and body all at once!! She was plopped onto my belly, and I couldn't believe I had gotten her out in one push after all that time trying. As a result, however, Bella most likely swallowed some of the amniotic fluid that came behind her in that rush out of my body. Soon after delivery, it was determined by the nurses and pediatrician assessing her that she was experiencing respiratory distress. After a brief time holding her, she was whisked away to the nursery where she has been ever since.
My good friend, Laurie, offered to post some pictures and details about Bella's situation on her blog since I was having a difficult time getting to updating my blog. Please click on her name to go to her blog for further details and pictures of my beautiful baby girl.
I have been able to hold Bella only once and have not been able to nurse her at all yet. It is for her best that I not nurse her right now as that would most likely exasperate her already very difficult breathing. Lawrence and I are soon heading out to the hospital to see her and get some update on her condition. I will try to post updates on our little girl as often as I can as we are very desirious to receive your prayers on her behalf.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Straightened Out
Since the last post, God, in a most gracious way, brought heartfelt conviction over my complaining and impatient, irritable spirit regarding the "delayed" arrival of Baby Almengor #3. He reminded me that it is a privilege and a gift from Him that I am even able to bear children and then, also to carry them to term (and past if necessary). He reminded me that His timing is perfect timing, and when I complain about going past my due date, I am really being foolish, thinking that I know better than Him regarding what's best for me and my family.
I read this excerpt from a book we have entitled "On This Day" by Robert J. Morgan. It is a book of 365 stories about saints, martyrs, and heroes, one story for each day of the calendar year. This was the story on Feb. 8th, my "official" due date:
Squalls and Stalls
Just when the apostle Paul intended a Spain-ward thrust of the gospel to evangelize Western Europe, he was detained in Jerusalem, then imprisoned two years in Caesarea. Finally appealing to the imperial court, he was hustled aboard ship for Rome. But a typhoon besieged the vessel; it sunk and Paul swam ashore--only to be bitten by a viper. Thus he found himself stranded on the island of Malta for three months.
But careful readers of Acts 27 and 28 are always impressed with Paul's self-possession. He kept his head above water even when his ship was going down. He knew how to remain even-tempered, though all the elements of frustration were at hand. Paul's missionary dreams were thwarted. He was imprisoned when he craved freedom and forced into inactivity when he desired action. He was eager to reach Rome, but the winds blew against him. He was a man of progress, making no headway. Wanting to redeem the time, he was beached on an obscure island.
He was stalled.
In due time the sea lanes reopened for the spring, and on February 8, 60, Paul boarded ship for the remainder of the trip to Rome. As for being frustrated, there's no sign of it. Paul's life and ministry were so entrusted to the Lord that he took everything that befell him, both squalls and stalls, as from God. Experience had taught him to trust in the Lord's providence and to lean on the Lord's promises. During the height of the earlier tempests, he had summarized his philosophy for the terrified sailors: "I belong to God, and I worship him...Cheer up ! I am sure that God will do exactly what he proimsed" (Acts 27:23-25).
It was not in due time--but in divine time--that Paul reached Rome. His nerves held steady in the storm. His spirit remained patient in delay.
He knew how to wait on his God.
And so is my prayer..that I would learn to hold steady in the storm, remain patient in delay and learn how to wait upon an all-wise, gracious God whose timing is always perfect.
Thank you all, as always, for your gracious, encouraging words and even moreso, your prayers on our behalf!!
I read this excerpt from a book we have entitled "On This Day" by Robert J. Morgan. It is a book of 365 stories about saints, martyrs, and heroes, one story for each day of the calendar year. This was the story on Feb. 8th, my "official" due date:
Squalls and Stalls
Just when the apostle Paul intended a Spain-ward thrust of the gospel to evangelize Western Europe, he was detained in Jerusalem, then imprisoned two years in Caesarea. Finally appealing to the imperial court, he was hustled aboard ship for Rome. But a typhoon besieged the vessel; it sunk and Paul swam ashore--only to be bitten by a viper. Thus he found himself stranded on the island of Malta for three months.
But careful readers of Acts 27 and 28 are always impressed with Paul's self-possession. He kept his head above water even when his ship was going down. He knew how to remain even-tempered, though all the elements of frustration were at hand. Paul's missionary dreams were thwarted. He was imprisoned when he craved freedom and forced into inactivity when he desired action. He was eager to reach Rome, but the winds blew against him. He was a man of progress, making no headway. Wanting to redeem the time, he was beached on an obscure island.
He was stalled.
In due time the sea lanes reopened for the spring, and on February 8, 60, Paul boarded ship for the remainder of the trip to Rome. As for being frustrated, there's no sign of it. Paul's life and ministry were so entrusted to the Lord that he took everything that befell him, both squalls and stalls, as from God. Experience had taught him to trust in the Lord's providence and to lean on the Lord's promises. During the height of the earlier tempests, he had summarized his philosophy for the terrified sailors: "I belong to God, and I worship him...Cheer up ! I am sure that God will do exactly what he proimsed" (Acts 27:23-25).
It was not in due time--but in divine time--that Paul reached Rome. His nerves held steady in the storm. His spirit remained patient in delay.
He knew how to wait on his God.
And so is my prayer..that I would learn to hold steady in the storm, remain patient in delay and learn how to wait upon an all-wise, gracious God whose timing is always perfect.
Thank you all, as always, for your gracious, encouraging words and even moreso, your prayers on our behalf!!
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Change the Date
I learned at last night's OB appointment that the due date they have for me is not until tomorrow, Feb. 8th. So, here's the new ticker:
While that might seem like it should help my psyche in this waiting game, it hasn't. In fact, last night's appointment particularly discouraged me as the baby's head is not close to being engaged, nor is my cervix doing squat. Now, logically, I know all that can change in a very short amount of time. But, today I'm not wanting to be all that logical. I'm a bit tired of wrestling with my emotions over the arrival of this little one and all the factors that play into that. I would like to forget I'm pregnant for a little while, but that's a bit difficult to do with my daily increasing weight and waist line.
My midwife's best suggestion was to try to forget about the due date and immerse myself in some activity. The one I would like to immerse myself in today is self pity. Not to sound too boastful, but I'm pretty good at this activity.
There's a beautiful coat of snow on the ground this morning, but we will most likely opt to stay inside. The boys can really have a hard time with asthma, and I'm fearful of the cold air precipitating an attack. Plus, the last time we had to walk outside on snow, Judah freaked out for some reason, not liking the feel of it beneath his feet. (Sometimes my geniuses are also a bit odd, but I guess geniuses are known to be odd, aren't they?) :)
That leaves us rather cooped up for several days now. You all know how cabin fever can really mess with one's mind, let alone one who is 9 months pregnant. Have I won the award for today's biggest whiner yet?
Feel no need to encourage me with your words, but your prayers would be much appreciated. I'm not even going to ask for you to pray that the baby comes any day in particular. I'm hanging up those prayers. I just would like to get through the day without complaining my way through it. I know I need a change of perspective and a change of attitude. I'm trusting God to be faithful once again.
While that might seem like it should help my psyche in this waiting game, it hasn't. In fact, last night's appointment particularly discouraged me as the baby's head is not close to being engaged, nor is my cervix doing squat. Now, logically, I know all that can change in a very short amount of time. But, today I'm not wanting to be all that logical. I'm a bit tired of wrestling with my emotions over the arrival of this little one and all the factors that play into that. I would like to forget I'm pregnant for a little while, but that's a bit difficult to do with my daily increasing weight and waist line.
My midwife's best suggestion was to try to forget about the due date and immerse myself in some activity. The one I would like to immerse myself in today is self pity. Not to sound too boastful, but I'm pretty good at this activity.
There's a beautiful coat of snow on the ground this morning, but we will most likely opt to stay inside. The boys can really have a hard time with asthma, and I'm fearful of the cold air precipitating an attack. Plus, the last time we had to walk outside on snow, Judah freaked out for some reason, not liking the feel of it beneath his feet. (Sometimes my geniuses are also a bit odd, but I guess geniuses are known to be odd, aren't they?) :)
That leaves us rather cooped up for several days now. You all know how cabin fever can really mess with one's mind, let alone one who is 9 months pregnant. Have I won the award for today's biggest whiner yet?
Feel no need to encourage me with your words, but your prayers would be much appreciated. I'm not even going to ask for you to pray that the baby comes any day in particular. I'm hanging up those prayers. I just would like to get through the day without complaining my way through it. I know I need a change of perspective and a change of attitude. I'm trusting God to be faithful once again.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Just Catching You Up
The boys amaze me with what might seem the simplest things. Perhaps, it's because they're my children or perhaps it's because I'm easily amazed. Who knows?! But, this morning, Judah was looking through some of his puzzle alphabet letters and came across the "Y". He said, "Y for Yuck" twice before I realized what he was saying. What a smart, little buddy!
Here's the ticker for the baby's arrival:
As you can see, I'm "overdue", whatever that means. Of course, it means a whole lot when you are the one who's overdue. It's so easy to say the due date is relative and not exact until you become the one who is past that nebulous due date!! I am having to confess everyday that goes by my lack of patience and my struggle to lean on my own understanding. And, I am having to reaffirm everyday that goes by my dependence and ultimate trust in God's perfect timing and wisdom for both how and when this baby will emerge into our world.
I have an OB appointment tomorrow evening and will post if there's anything post-worthy. Otherwise, just assume that we're still at home waiting, trying to get and maintain an orderly, clean home and continuing to make plans for bringing this baby home with us.
Still to be done:
Here's the ticker for the baby's arrival:
As you can see, I'm "overdue", whatever that means. Of course, it means a whole lot when you are the one who's overdue. It's so easy to say the due date is relative and not exact until you become the one who is past that nebulous due date!! I am having to confess everyday that goes by my lack of patience and my struggle to lean on my own understanding. And, I am having to reaffirm everyday that goes by my dependence and ultimate trust in God's perfect timing and wisdom for both how and when this baby will emerge into our world.
I have an OB appointment tomorrow evening and will post if there's anything post-worthy. Otherwise, just assume that we're still at home waiting, trying to get and maintain an orderly, clean home and continuing to make plans for bringing this baby home with us.
Still to be done:
- strap infant seat into van.
- pack a bag for baby and me for our time in the hospital.
- buy italian ices for the potential of laboring at home.
In our human wisdom, Lawrence and I would say this week, preferably the earlier part of this week, would be best for the baby to come in regards to his work schedule. This week, Lawrence is in the office either tying up loose ends of jobs he's almost finished or preparing for jobs he has yet to begin audits for. From next week until the end of March, he is scheduled to be out in the field on actual engagments which means much less flexibility for him in terms of taking off time for the baby. So, we would pray that the baby would come this week: like today or tomorrow would be GREAT!
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