continued quote from yesterday's post...
The Sovereignty of God became a strong pillar in the foundation of my faith. Even though things did not improve for a very long time, I clung to this passage: "And we konw that God works all things together for the good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His purposes" (Rom 8:28). God is in charge of all things. He is fully in control. He is not subject to random quirks in the system, nor is He at the mercy of Satan.
Nothing comes to us except first through the hands of our loving heavenly Father. Our child was not God's accident, or mistake, or my personal lapse in prenatal care. God has purposes we don't know about. He knows the end from the beginning. Just knowing that He does have a bigger purpose in everything that happens in my life, and that it is for good purpose, is a great relief. That is why the first three words of Romans 8:28, "And we know," are so important. If we didn't know, we would be relegated to consider our "bad luck" and spend the rest of our lives trying to "get over", or oppose this "bitter fate." Instead, I can see my child as a special gift from God, not a burden or a punishment. And when times get tough, He tells me:
"Come unto Me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest, Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My load is light" (Matt. 11:28-30)
God has ALL things in His hands: he knows all about your child and his needs.
"My frame was not hidden from Thee, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth. Thine eyes have seen my unformed substance; and in Thy book there were all written, the days that were ordained for me when as yet there was not one of them (Psalm 139:15, 16)
God aslo knows all about you, your needs and your suffering. Your child comes to you from God with His grace. Like the Israelites in the wilderness, you have the opportunity to gather just enough daily, and no more. We have a tremendous opportunity to know His faithfulness and goodness as well as our own need and deep dependence on Him. As parents, it is our privilege to go to Him often.
"For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who has been tempted in all things as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need (Heb. 4:15, 16).
God would not give you this child to ruin your life and the lives of every member of your family, for it is God who has promised "to work all things for good."