While that might seem like it should help my psyche in this waiting game, it hasn't. In fact, last night's appointment particularly discouraged me as the baby's head is not close to being engaged, nor is my cervix doing squat. Now, logically, I know all that can change in a very short amount of time. But, today I'm not wanting to be all that logical. I'm a bit tired of wrestling with my emotions over the arrival of this little one and all the factors that play into that. I would like to forget I'm pregnant for a little while, but that's a bit difficult to do with my daily increasing weight and waist line.
My midwife's best suggestion was to try to forget about the due date and immerse myself in some activity. The one I would like to immerse myself in today is self pity. Not to sound too boastful, but I'm pretty good at this activity.
There's a beautiful coat of snow on the ground this morning, but we will most likely opt to stay inside. The boys can really have a hard time with asthma, and I'm fearful of the cold air precipitating an attack. Plus, the last time we had to walk outside on snow, Judah freaked out for some reason, not liking the feel of it beneath his feet. (Sometimes my geniuses are also a bit odd, but I guess geniuses are known to be odd, aren't they?) :)
That leaves us rather cooped up for several days now. You all know how cabin fever can really mess with one's mind, let alone one who is 9 months pregnant. Have I won the award for today's biggest whiner yet?
Feel no need to encourage me with your words, but your prayers would be much appreciated. I'm not even going to ask for you to pray that the baby comes any day in particular. I'm hanging up those prayers. I just would like to get through the day without complaining my way through it. I know I need a change of perspective and a change of attitude. I'm trusting God to be faithful once again.
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Praying for you.
Feburaary 8th is a great day to be born!
Love,
amanda
Praying for God's peace for you today!! Love you Bri!! -- Jen
My sister hated snow when she was Judah's age. She just sit outside and cry. Anyway, you're in my prayers
As I said this a.m. on the phone, Psalm 29 says "the voice of Lord makes the deer give birth" and I asked him to speak to my 'dear' friend and cause birth! Feb 14th is a wonderful day to have a baby .They are,by their very birthday, sweet as all get out.
Aww, praying for you, too!
It must be a girl! Taking her own sweet time. I know a little of how you are feeling as Cana was three days after the dr.appointed due date.
God has chosen the perfect day, perfect time, perfect way for you and this baby! Rest in this! Enjoy your geniuses today - life will be different on the other side of today. Enjoy it to the hilt!
you make me laugh!! maybe I'm not supposed to do that in response to your whining, but, oh well!!
I remember feeling very overdue with John because they'd switched his due date a few times..ugh!!
maybe reading Steppng Heavenward with your spare time (!) would do your soul well. That book reminds me of both our temperaments!
Love you! And praying still!
still praying for you.
and lawrence. poor guy!
kidding!!! just messing with the pregnant lady.
love you, beth
Ok, I love the "whining"! Your honesty is refreshing, and besides we all know that we are stuck in the muck of self-pity at times. I am thankful for your personality today, as always. Much love, GLA
P.S. Rest in God's grace...and some help from friens, family and husband! Nine months pregnant is a "huge" place to be (no pun intended).
Ok, I love the "whining"! Your honesty is refreshing, and besides we all know that we are stuck in the muck of self-pity at times. I am thankful for your personality today, as always. Much love, GLA
P.S. Rest in God's grace...and some help from friens, family and husband! Nine months pregnant is a "huge" place to be (no pun intended).
Hang in there!! Can't wait for the announcement!
...loving the honesty. If we all could be a little more down-to-earth and real about things, we'd probably rely on ourselves a little less and the Savior a whole lot more....or maybe not. With that being said it doesn't minimize the real-ness you are experiencing this very present moment. A prayer will be sent first priority mail. Love you.
Bri- I am praying for you too!! If it helps...my mom was on bed rest for like 3 months with me AND I was 2 weeks late (no changes in due dates). can't wait for the new one!
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